Sunday, December 25, 2011

Reliving in our eloquence...

I went out searching for some Christmas cheer.

I went to the city, but couldn't find any there. Every street down which I walked was stained with the dirt rising from the cracks of the pavement, consuming my path until I had nowhere left to explore. Each skyscraper towered over me and cast a suspicious eye on my feeble frame, inquiring as to my purpose and position. I pulled my scarf tight around my face as I shuffled past, hoping not to be noticed.

I went out searching for some Christmas cheer.

I went to the mall, but couldn't find any there. On every side I was pressed by nauseating throngs of the gluttonous populous, each seeking their own and speaking unswervingly of gain. Even old friends seemed to set an agenda, led on by their packages. Followed by the desperate words of greasy salesmen I continued on in search of comfort devoid of consumer stimulation, however beneficial.

I went out searching for some Christmas cheer.

I went out to see the lights, but couldn't find any there. The lights were cold. They glowed on in spite of my pain, spraying their crimson and emerald aura about the grey landscape. No snow was to be found, leaving the once quaint scenery a dry wasteland. Lukewarm in it's existence, the residents drove on, lukewarm in their passing. I couldn't stay in once place for more than a few moment.

 I went out searching for some Christmas cheer...

and then I came home.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4aBVgXYrigM

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Saturday, November 26, 2011

When she smiles, well it's got nothing to do with me....

You cannot help the poor by destroying the rich.
You cannot strengthen the weak by weakening the strong.
You cannot bring about prosperity by discouraging thrift.
You cannot lift the wage earner up by pulling the wage payer down.
You cannot further the brotherhood of man by inciting class hatred.
You cannot build character and courage by taking away people’s initiative and independence.
You cannot help people permanently by doing for them, what they could and should do for themselves.

--Abraham Lincoln

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Love Like Woe.



"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Saturday, November 12, 2011

The scene of a silent cry for help...

 Ever feel like you're being watched?



Welcome home...

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Let them weave their little webs to snatch the sunlight from the lens...

Ever feel like you're being watched?


Welcome to the city...

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Ice.

"I play it cool
I dig all jive
That's the reason
I stay alive
My motto
As I live and learn
Is dig and be dug in return."

-Langston Hughes

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Monday, October 3, 2011

Grabbing credits and maybe transfers...

 Man... I have some violet mood swings during COMM classes.




"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Just make your way to the door...

Imagine for a moment that you're walking down narrow sidewalk in the midst of a smokey city street. As the rain falls all around you, the only source of comfort comes from the lights of the city flooding the airwaves high above your head. Every teardrop that hits the ground echoes down the corridors on your right. Suddenly the wind rips your umbrella from your grasp and you're left standing exposed to the earth and elements. You can say, "I believe!"  all you want but until what you believe means something, you are nothing. Of course what one believes is only relative as long as you're in a position of power. When all of the floors collapse and you're left staring down the side of the gulf, tell me who's opinions matter then? I'm in the midst of something large, and they can't take my faith from me, cuz at the end of the day...it's all I really have. I might be losing, but I'm still fighting.




That's why true leaders have no emotions.

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

It's in my blood...



Now what if I told you my city was the best
And my city was a threat to the rest
And my city was a threat to the rest

This city is my city
And I love it, yeah I love it
I was born and raised here
I got it made here
And if I have my way, I'm gonna stay

From every corner
To every block yeah
And whether it's warm or storming or downright stupid hot, hot
From the problems all the way to the solutions yeah
Forget all the drugs and gangs, corruption and pollution no!

Cause this city is my city
And I love it, yeah I love it
I was born and raised here
I got it made here
And if I have my way, I'm gonna stay here
For life, uh huh
For life, uh huh
For life, uh huh
For life, uh huh
For life, uh huh
For life, uh huh
For life, uh huh
For life, uh huh

Now what if I told you my city was the best
And my city was a threat to the rest
But you can't rest inside my city
My city's so cold if you ain't dressed
And what they accept, better had a right address
Parts of my city, certain colors can't step
And sadly I'm talking about the color of your skin
Sorry my brother, I can't let you in
Cause the property value might go down to a level that's
Economically unacceptable and socially taboo for us to live around you
Uh, uh, is this what it's down to?
Root for the same team, maybe had the same dream
Not the same reality,
Actually, mines is a bad education and gentrification
Despite all the above I love...

This city is my city
And I love it, yeah I love it
I was born and raised here
I got it made here
And if I have my way, I'm gonna stay here
For life, uh huh
For life, uh huh
For life, uh huh
For life, uh huh
For life, uh huh
For life, uh huh
For life, uh huh
For life, uh huh

You can take my picture,
You can take my name,
But you're never gonna take my city away
Cause you can burn it to the ground
Oh or let it flood, but it's in my blood

Cause this city is my city
And I love it, yeah I love it
I was born and raised here
I got it made here
And if I have my way, I'm gonna stay here




For life...



"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Friday, September 2, 2011

Zzzzzzz.

"Human progress never rolls in on wheels of inevitability; it comes through the tireless efforts of men willing to be co-workers with God, and without this hard work, time itself becomes an ally of the forces of social stagnation"  - Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.




"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Your lips give you away...

August, 2011
To my beloved Nightingale,

              Thank you so much for your previous letter. I keep it with me at all times in my breast pocket and read it several times a day. Your sweet words give me strength I need to face the day before me. It is so wonderful to hear about the comings and goings from back home! In the midst of all the pain I see around me, it's such a blessing to know that the war has not touched every place. It also gladdens my heart to hear of your mother and her recovery, may God heal your afflictions and bring you as much peace as He has brought our family in years past!

            Our company will be moving from our current encampment within the next two days; and during the day the entire camp is bustling with the movements of men as they pack the supplies and prepare for the long march ahead of us. However, as I write to you now at twilight the sounds of frogs in the woods, and the distant tones of a guitar on the other side of the ridge drift through the air. I can hear the heavy breathing of men as they sleep. Some dream while others do not. But the camp is always alive, even in the dead of night, I can only begin to imagine every whimsy that walks these streets and lanes during the heat of day and peace of night.

             My bunk mate has proved to be an excellent fellow so far. I had entered a few light skirmishes with his company previous to the current campaign, and he had always struck me as a rather clever fellow, if not a unique one. That's turned out to be exactly what he is. He spurs me on to action in ways I hadn't thought of before, quite a charming fellow who gives himself fully to the duties around him. I'm honored to have him around. When we're out amongst the other soldiers, I constantly find myself looking for others like him, often praying that each man will simply remember what they forgot they once knew.

    A humming bird watched me from behind as I cleaned my boots today! It was probably the most peaceful thing I've had the privilege of seeing in a while. I have been spending the past few mornings waking earlier than usual to full fill duties assigned to me by the Colonel himself. I'll tell you it's not the most pleasant of tasks to be down in the trenches, clearing the paths and making room for incoming troops. Down there one becomes close friends with his shovel for the other men are not much for conversation. However, as I wiped the grime from my brogans, I couldn't help but wonder if the small creature flitting behind me had seen you as he traveled through the air. Surely she had passed by your house on her way out to greet me. It was just another one of the ever present reminders that the number of miles in between you and I and have not ceased to grow since I left.

     It's strange, my dearest, when walk the streets at night thinking of you, I can picture your face and I can see it clearly. Every edge  is outlined so sweetly as the sun glints off your skin. Your lips curl back in a soft smile as you are about to speak...






















I just wish I knew who you are.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VwuLm1HPpSY

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

You've got to try this sometime.





"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Saturday, August 20, 2011

I hope one day I'm stronger than I feel, and I hope that it feels different than today...

"If there is another day, it will be tomorrow."

Goals....aren't too bad of a thing to have...right?

#1. Be positive about every circumstance, seeing an opportunity or lesson in life.
#2. Be more patient.
#3. Speak love a little more than truth.
#4.Cry again.
#5. Be more decisive.
#6. and turn this whole wide world on it's face!

School is here, and everything is about to change.

Fall 2011 playlist anyone?

Sunday - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j7h_b-YA5qM
 Monday - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H-ru2glqXAg
Tuesday- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lZqzd3AhWVI
Wednesday - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7Ilpnhr0kM
Thursday - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L0GVoqsJr_s
 Friday - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UhQUyeQf01Q
Saturday - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7uoC-YTQy8&feature=related

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

I'm not one for complaining, but...


"We're all living Pinocchios..."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9hDrfOXGeM0&feature=related

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Saturday, July 30, 2011

All you can do is try to know who your friends are, as you head off to the war...

 "Put ethics and philosophy together and you get religion..."

"You're a chuggernaught!"

“Alright! Devotion begins on the floor!”

“If I ever hear you say the book of Deuteronomy is irrelevant to your life, I will personally come to your house and slap you. I will slap you in front of your mama...”

“Song of Solomon has got to be one of those earlier engagements, by number one-thousand he’s got to be like… ‘You’re hot.’”

“That’s how we grow up in Christ, we stop putting weed killer in our bodies and start putting in miracle grow…”

“What is the carnage of our redemption?”  *Chuckles*

“Don’t think evangelism is about having a parking place near the door!”

“Wait, is your shirt in a different language?”

"Holocaust jokes aren't funny, Anne Frankly, I won't stand for them..."

“You see, she gets angry with drama the way I get angry with stupid people!”

“I like my beard, but I always have to trim my sideburns. One time I didn’t shave them, and they started to whistle. They would whistle when I would run…then I thought I had a hearing problem.”

"You know, I think you're the first boy I've talked to all week..."

“Don’t be gross to fit in, It never works…”

“Oh no! It’s the vampire, mummy, elephant squirrels! They’re coming to get us!”

“Someone may be sincerely wrong, but when exposed to the truth, they will either cease to be wrong, or cease to be sincere…”




"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Name.

Abou Ben Adhem (may his tribe increase)
Awoke one night from a deep dream of peace,
And saw within the moonlight in his room,
making it rich and like a lily in bloom.
An Angel writing in a book of gold:-
 Exceeding peace had made Ben Adhem bold,
And To the Presence in the Room he said,

"What writest thou?" The Vision raised its head,
And with a look made of all sweet accord
Answered, "The names of those who love the 'Lord."
"And is mine one?" said Abou. "Nay not so,"
Replied the Angel. Abou spoke more low.
But cheerily still; and said, "I pray then then,
Write me as one who loves his fellow-men,"




The Angel Wrote and vanished. The next night
It came again with a great wakening light,
And showed the names whom love of God has blessed,
And Lo! Ben Adhem's name led all the rest!

-James Henry Leigh Hunt

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W_Aq8doNNmA

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

The indications reveal that few of us realize life is quite surreal...

I did it.  But I'm not done...

I guess that's just the Pete Rose in me.


http://www.playlist.com/searchbeta/tracks#Owl%20City%20Angels/all/1
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Bottle Rocket.

"God came from Teman, 
The Holy One from Mount Paran.  

Selah  

His glory covered the heavens, 
And the earth was full of His praise.   
His brightness was like the light; 
He had rays flashing from His hand, 
And there His power was hidden. 
Before Him went pestilence, 
And fever followed at His feet.  

He stood and measured the earth; 
He looked and startled the nations. 
And the everlasting mountains were scattered, 
The perpetual hills bowed. 
His ways are everlasting. 
I saw the tents of Cushan in affliction;
The curtains of the land of Midian trembled.
O LORD, were You displeased with the rivers,
Was Your anger against the rivers,
Was Your wrath against the sea
That You rode on Your horses, 
Your chariots of salvation? 
Your bow was made quite ready; 
Oaths were sworn over Your arrows.  

Selah  

You divided the earth with rivers. 
The mountains saw You and trembled; 
The overflowing of the water passed by. 
The deep uttered its voice,
And lifted its hands on high. 
The sun and moon stood still in their habitation; 
At the light of Your arrows they went, 
At the shining of Your glittering spear. 

You marched through the land in indignation; 
You trampled the nations in anger. 
You went forth for the salvation of Your people, 
For salvation with Your Anointed. 
You struck the head from the house of the wicked, 
By laying bare from foundation to neck.  

Selah  

You thrust through with his own arrows 
The head of his villages. 
They came out like a whirlwind to scatter me; 
Their rejoicing was like feasting on the poor in secret. 
You walked through the sea with Your horses, 
Through the heap of great waters. 

When I heard, my body trembled; 
My lips quivered at the voice; 
Rottenness entered my bones; 
And I trembled in myself, 
That I might rest in the day of trouble..."



 Habakkuk 3:3-16

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Assuming all the wrong reasons...

I listened to your message,
Over and over again.
Thought about how I let you down.
Thought about who I am.

I felt hopeless,
I got caught up in this life.
I'm such a mess,
I wonder how I looked through your eyes.

We've all got a past...

Baby, take your time.
Stop and see for once in your life
The things you're missing out on.

I look out on the city lights
Wonder where you are tonight?
There's so much that I wanna say
Will you ever let me?

And if I pour my heart out
Do you want the truth?
Yeah, I'd pour my heart out
I at least owe that to you.

Baby, take your time,
Stop and see for once in your life
The things you're missing out on.
Like me, like me in the sunshine
The summer's almost over,
We're running out of time.

I at least owe that to you.

Open up your eyes
There's so much I have to say, will you ever let me?
I'm right in front of you
There's so much I have to say, will you ever let me?

It's too cold for June.
How come I only hear from you when you're liquored up?
I've heard all about the others
And this side of you that you discovered this summer.

Baby, take your time,
Stop and see for once in your life
The things you're missing out on.
Like me, like me in the sunshine
The summer's almost over,
We're running out of time...


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Thursday, June 23, 2011

We've got trouble, yes! Right here in River City!



"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

This is the best feeling in the world. :)






















"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Monday, June 20, 2011

Time out of mind must be heavenly...

Hm, how to say this without sounding repetitive? I'm tired of letting the lyrics speak for me. That's the lazy man's way out of self expression.

In the past year I've made a certain progression in the right direction. At least that's what I tell myself in the darkest moments, and see? That's just the thing. I don't have dark moments anymore. I don't have incredibly happy ones anymore either. Things pass me by in a whir of apathetic convalescence. All at the same time, I feel like I should be standing on my own two feet and leading the way without flinching, while also healing from some great calamity. Stuck in the middle is a strange place to be. That's not a new feeling though; this impotence has been a friend of mine for a while now. I just happened to be distracted by this and that, always caused by a false sense of self worth. One can only hear so many different opinions before the decision comes.

"Hang it all! I don't care anymore. You don't know who I am and could never begin to understand!"

Dude, seriously though... I'm too old to be pulling 13-year-old "You don't understand me" stunts.

The truth of the matter is I'm tired of failing, and changing, and being insincere, and saying what I don't mean, and not upholding my own ideals, and spilling my guts, and being used, and not finding what I'm really looking for. I can't keep watching A Walk To Remember and crying every time. I'm not even sure what I'm crying about, for crying out loud!!! I guess I'm never quite sure to deal with the things that God places in my life. I'll always face the changes and hope for the worst discovering in the end that it's not quite that bad. Maybe this massive change looming on my horizon will shake me out of this...if it doesn't, then I don't know what will.

I used to pray that my conscience wouldn't harden, and now I pray that it won't have too.

But in the end, it's funny how I was always fine being a novelty...


...until the moment it mattered most.

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Sunday, June 19, 2011

And other days I'm just a lucky bug...

My many companions have returned to me!

Even though my heart still breaks every summer,

The thing is...


I'm not dead yet.

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Kayak

"Dude, when you finally find a girl who's beautiful on the inside...you should marry her and have ugly babies.  "

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Oh, Comet come down!

I’d like to do a rain dance, and set the bright rays free
But jumping up and down doesn’t make much sense to me.
So you look down on all of this to watch my grand mistake,
And I’ll keep eating sun chips just to wish the storms away.

I know that this evening is an awkward one for you,
But you don’t have to hide from the things I’ve said to you.
Just cuz I left you in a make or break parade,
It doesn’t mean you have to ignore all my serenades.

Yes, I swear to say it louder the more that you tell me I'm wrong,
And you could never understand why I wrote this desperate song.
And So I’ll mosh my own way home to drown out our condition,
I’ll leave the ground and hold the line to kill off my addictions.
 
The ties that bind our lives together are so thin it seems, 
And what a shame it is when petty things get in-between.
I’d never noticed all the colors in every gravel stone,
But you can’t go from east to west, unless you turn around.

So if I learn to dance around you, will you step on my toes?
And if you ever pluck the strings, will I sing on my own?
Cuz when I've lost my sanity in the wrong upswing,
What is left for you but to put Rosie in the ring?

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Discretion.

Life is like a fire. There will be moments of burning passion and sometimes the fire almost dies out, but it's  better to have a warm bed of coals and a steady flame, than a raging inferno.

"Is that the way it should be?"

"It's not so much how you deal with the highs and lows, but how you face the day after."




We all want the same revolution, but are still afraid of change....


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Saturday, May 21, 2011

You and life remain beautiful...

When I was younger sometimes my Mom would ask me a silly question. I call it a silly question because the question merits such an obvious answer, that the question itself is negated in the very asking. It would be like asking the wind if he was afraid of heights, or a fish if he enjoyed swimming. Yet the question was asked all the same, and truthfully, I say that the question was asked (at least I think) simply to provoke me. To what I'm not sure, but it sure did.

The question was..
"Tyler, is there anything that you do enjoy?"

Now of course, everytime I was asked this question I would be taken aback due to the aforementioned reasoning. How am I suppose to answer that? Such a loaded question merits no answer, so I often wouldn't.

That's the the strange thing about communication, it often fails in the simple act of being carried out. It's much like  how the breeze on the back of your neck chills you to the bone while it also reminds you of everything that's worth fighting for in this world.  Equally as strange is the fashion that communication ties into everything it takes notice of. Take joy for example. All my life, I've been told that happiness is a choice one makes of one's own power. I was told that happiness is something that comes because you choose to see it.

"Happiness is a firecracker sittin' on my headboard, happiness was never mine to hold. Careful child, light the fuse and get away, cause happiness throws a shower of sparks."

I've decided that is a false statement, for one simple reason; and that reason is simply because joy is an illusion, or at least "joy" in the sense that many always speak of.

"Joy" is an illusion because people think of it as an attainable goal. Many consider joy a state of being, or maybe even a way of thinking which stands apart from others. All of these ideas are false. True joy is found only in motion. It's the journey in route rather than the location to be reached. Joy is the train, Love is the ticket, Blood is the wheels, and Heaven's where I'm heading. With His help, I'll get there someday. Until then I'm going to enjoy the view.

I had to say some hard things to you today, and you'll probably never forgive me. But if you read this, at least know...

If this was our destiny I'd treasure the fact,
And I'd give you whats left of me if I'd held back.
I miss you now,
I loved you,
And I know things could still be worse.

You and life remain beautiful...

Romans 3:25-26

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n3ICASGpJDw


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Monday, May 16, 2011

Your mind is like a candle stick, and my ambitions are constantly burning out...

Can the dead see everything we do? If they can, I wonder if they cringe when we step out of line. Imagine that those who passed on before us know how every nuance of our conduct will play out. I'm not quite comfortable with the thought of my great-grandparents knowing my every thought; they probably would think me shallow and naïve, and the shame of it is they'd be right. I can't even fathom how much time I waste in pursuing that which will profit me nothing. It's even a greater shame when I can see when I've wasted my time.

Lord, I don't understand You or Your ways, but I trust You with my future.


 Could You ask those who are watching over me to be patient?

Lamentations 3:25-28

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Friday, May 6, 2011

Autonomy.

"I've always wanted to throw money at a problem!"




"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Monday, April 18, 2011

Nothing complicated...

It's just living.



"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Intermission.

I feel the salty waves come in,
I feel them crash against my skin,
And I smile as I respire because I know they'll never win.
There's a haze above my TV,
That changes everything I see.
And maybe if I continue watching,
I'll lose the traits that worry me.

Can we fast-forward till you go down with me?

Stop there and let me correct it,
I wanna live a life from a new perspective.
You come along because I love your face,
And I'll admire your expensive taste.
And who cares divine intervention?
I wanna be praised from a new perspective.
But leaving now would be a good idea,
So catch me up i'm getting out of here.

Taking everything for granted but we still respect the time,
We move along with some new passion knowing everything is fine.
And I would wait and watch the hours fall in a hundred separate lines,
But I regain repose and wonder how I ended up inside.

Can we fast-forward till you go down with me?

Stop there and let me correct it,
I wanna live a life from a new perspective.
You come along because I love your face,
And I'll admire your expensive taste.
And who cares divine intervention?
I wanna be praised from a new perspective.
But leaving now would be a good idea,
So catch me up i'm getting out of here.

Catch me up i'm getting out of here!

More to the point, I need to show,
How much I can come and go.
Other plans fell through,
And put a heavy load on you, I know.
There's no more that need be said
When I'm inching through your bed,
Take a look around instead and watch me go.

Stop there and let me correct it,
I wanna live a life from a new perspective.
You come along because I love your face,
And I'll admire your expensive taste.
And who cares divine intervention?
I wanna be praised from a new perspective.
But leaving now would be a good idea,
So catch me up i'm getting out of here.

It's not fair, just let me perfect it
Don't wanna live a life that is comprehensive,
'Cause seeing clear would be a bad idea,
Now catch me up im getting out of here.
So catch me up I'm getting out of here...


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

I'll draw this line and hope you'll take my side...

All of the pieces have fallen in place, creating the exact same scene, and tonight...I am the blindest of the blind.
Beacons from the night illuminating the sky, they stand aligned. The wind inside blows turning all to white, as I pull my scarf tight. Blurring my sight the time speeds by, keeping me in line. Might the dreams I only dream come to be mine?
It’s hard to write love songs when you’re bound from soul to wrists, but getting what I what need always comes before getting what I wish. So i’m seeking some escape and giving into total depravity, and I’m  running down my hallways, while pacing in the dark, hoping for some stumbling block to finally end this heart.
But why should I listen to the kettle call me black, while I’m standing in line for a heart attack?



I’ll be the first to admit I’ve predicted the path incorrectly, but it’s not my fault I was chosen as the navigator.

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Don't follow that yellow brick road...

"And I’ve had it comin’ for a while now
Cuz I’m always looking for a reason to frown
And maybe if you remember why I love you
Then we’ll come to terms and the world will too."

I've had alot of things in my life the past few weeks point me back in the direction that I once thought I was traveling in.  
In reality...i've lost a bit of my original vision...

So...

Joyful living...Here I come...

To celebrate...I made a list of things I like. :P

Here it is...

My sisters
My Parents
My Grandparents
My Aunt & Uncle
My Cousins
Friends who never forget you’re there
Friends who are witty
Friends who are giddy over autotune
Friends who are so sincere that they’re abrasive
Running through the mud barefoot
Big cities at Christmas time.
Cold drinks without ice
The smell after a thunderstorm
The smell of cut grass
Being read to…
Running after dark
Ultimate Frisbee
Catching fireflies
Groves which possess an abundance of fireflies
Dlibert
Pearls Before Swine!
The Big Book of Bunny Suicides
Calvin & Hobbes!
Wading in the river during the summer
Conversations had while sitting in a tree
Closing my eyes and leaning against the wind
Staring at fires which light dark spaces
Bright sunsets
Heavy Rain
Swimming
Quiet Conversation
Meaningful Conversation
Humorous Conversation
Jelly Beans
People who give me jelly beans
Surprise Visits
The sweat on my brow
The words on this page...
The glimmer in his eyes...
The smile on her face...
The sound of the mandolin
Passionate Music!
New Music!
Clever Lyrics
People who think like this… http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cWt8hTayupE
My Job
Eating out of bowls
Driving
Long, one on one walks
The feeling I get after beasting down homework!
Elephants
Colourful fish
Being by myself…but not for more than an hour at a time.
Intriguing questions
Waterfalls
Cloud patterns at night
Seeing my breath
Grey December nights with heavy wind and blowing snow
Ice sickles
Crying
Moonbasking
And many more things…I’ll think of later…



"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Friday, April 1, 2011

Took the words right out of my mouth...

 Yes.


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

You and God both got the guns, and when you shoot I think I'd duck...


Oh yes...

I'm in a Panic!

(NEXT DAY EDIT)
After listening to the entire record once...I think this is my favorite song, lyrically, musically, and especially atmospherically ...course I have yet to let the slower songs sink in.



 "I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Pick up your feet now boy, faster than love...

"This is how we know that we belong to the truth and how we set our hearts at rest in His presence: If our hearts condemn us, we know that God is greater than our hearts, and He knows everything. Dear friends, if our Hearts do not condemn us, we have confidence before God and receive from Him anything we ask, because we keep His commands and do what pleases him. And this is His command: to believe in the name of His Son, Jesus Christ, and to love one another as he commanded us. The one who keeps God’s commands lives in Him, and He in them. And this is how we know that He lives in us: We know it by the Spirit He gave us."

 - 1 John 3:19-24

I'm gonna start living my life by this, just you wait and see.

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Schemata

I really want someone to read to me...I would enjoy it alot. :)














"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Thursday, March 10, 2011

We keep actions in the attics, to see cameras in the sky...

         

       Let all who write off punk rock as unintelligent noise be silenced in the wake of Rise Against’s latest album, Endgame. First formed in Chicago, Illinois in 1999, Rise Against still stand as one of the most provocative bands to appear on the scene. Their status remains unchallenged, not only because of their undeniable classic punk spirit, but also because of the bands actions on and off stage. As active supporters of PETA and straight edge lifestyles, the members of Rise Against remain extremely active and honest in their personal and political beliefs, allowing their music to act as one method by which their message is carried.
             
       The politically aware, melodic hardcore quartet have returned to the scene with their sixth manifesto, a album powered by more high octane anthems of socio-economic outrage. Set to the iconic vocal of front man, Tim Mcllrath, the band finds itself inhabiting a musical headspace akin to their previous outing Appeal to Reason, and musically there is not much difference between the two records. However, as they often say, “If it isn’t broken, don’t fix it!” If nothing else, Rise Against have polished their signature sound a bit after the dust collected during touring. On Endgame, the tunes are still driven by the razor sharp riffs of Zach Blair and driving beats of Brandon Barnes sitting behind the drum kit.
          
             As any Rise Against fan can attest to, the band excels at crafting upbeat punk music with a knack for catchy melodies, without losing any of the sleek brutality for which punk music is known. Yet In the myriad of punk bands, Rise Against still possess a signature twist in their writing which sets them apart. By utilizing well placed time shifts, the group adds energy to their civic rants, creating a touch of the melodramatic in their music. This familiar dynamic is employed on Endgame on such tracks as “Help Is on the Way” and “Satellite” where a melodic shift from minute major melodies to a darker, droning minor tone is applied. The former of these two (as well as the first single) gives listeners the ability to engage in the emotion and power of Mcllrath’s message as the jumpy lead guitar riff shifts into a slower brood.
          
              Another strength of Endgame can be found in the lyricism which the band puts forth. Where many punk bands don’t take the time to craft careful poetic phrases in their music, Rise Against place a lot of emphasis on their message which ultimately brings their lyrical quality above many of their contemporaries. With violent poetry Mcllrath, croons “That’s why we stick to your game plans and party lives, but at night we’re perspiring by candlelight. We are the orphans of the American dreams. Oh shine your light on me!” on “Satellite” truly painting his disgust with current day issues. Meanwhile on such tracks like “Survivor Guilt” the singer echoes the words of a deceased soldier, questioning the value of fighting for a country which will soon pass in lines such as “Carry on, don't mind me. All I gave was everything and yet you ask me for more. Fought your fight, bought your light, In return I lost my life. What purpose does this serve?” Where Tim Mcllrath does not overly rely on profanity to carry his songs, he doesn’t shy away from cursing several times on both “Architects” and “Survivor Guilt” preventing me from getting enthusiastic about those particular songs. Yet for the remainder of the album, the lyrics paint a desperate and angry scene of civil unrest and revolution, yet always end with the hope of change, leaving a place for reform.
             
             Ultimately, the downfall of Endgame is found in its inability to stand out in comparison to anything outside of Rise Against’s previous work. Though dynamic and energetic within the Rise Against camp, Endgame suffers from a predictability which is enjoyable to a degree but doesn’t shine brighter in terms of progression.  Listeners will certainly have fond memories of Appeal To Reason as they listen to each cut of this album, but will find themselves longing for tracks such as “Savior”, “The Dirt Whispered”, or “Audience of Oneand will probably switch back to that record sometime before they even finish one revolution of Endgame, which doesn’t particularly make for an incredibly memorable album. However, fans of the group's sound and previous work will find this an aspect easy to overlook.
           
            Being the band’s sixth studio album in 20 years, it is refreshing to see a group remaining solid in what they have determined to be their sonic strengths. The demand to constantly deliver quality material is a pressure within the alternative scene today, and fans are never easy to please. However naysayers will be hard pressed to downplay the ever present passion in Rise Against’s current studio outing. If you’re suddenly caught in the middle of downtown setting fire to government property, just say, “Mcllrath made me to do it!”




"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Never Re-decide.

               I’m running ahead, outracing the thunder while the storm still approaches. Stripping away some sense of dignity as the wind blows sharply and the river overflows. Honest, cross my heart, I'm listening. "Please speak..."

               Sometimes the best way to say something is aggressively. No words short of the abrasive will properly convey all that passion in it's immaculacy demands.  In earnest purity, a call is made leaving every other sentiment behind. No matter how loud wrong screams, and no matter how malicious, it is still inaccurate. Honor will always remain victorious in it's very existence, for it is eternal. All the while the simple are fighting fire with fire and rewarding peace with peace, making for a perfect Friday.

              Yet amidst all the empty words, one can't help but wonder at the panoply in a world filled with kind eyed snakes and dazzling wizardry. Inside of an afternoon the world revolves a bit more and the sparkling sidelines begin to fade, leaving something to be desired. A question can only be asked so many times before becoming white noise, which no one ever notices. Now's the time to back off.

              Can’t you see this is just another stream of consciousness? Another high paced mental leap, one that Freud could never predict. All the while...I can't get over this nagging feeling that something is changing. But hey...who said ever said change was inevitable? I guess I'm just oblivious. So now I’m giving apathy it’s full due for making me like this. No one ever told me just how to cope, cus it's hard to write love songs when you’re bound from soul to wrists.

             Meanwhile, most of us are really just flipping lucky pennies into a dark hallway and hoping for a "heads up." Seems like the coin is never friendly these days, but then again it never was. Just a ghost of a chance, and a simple life's stance inside the rubble of an ever present question...
 

 "Will I ever come around?"



"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Dooda-dit-dooda, dit-dooda-dit-dooda!

Today was a good day. No gettin' around it. Here's the documentation to prove it! :)






"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Author of the Moment, Can You Tell Me, Do I End Up Happy?


           The Wind was a poet, and a reckless one at that. Each day at daylight he proceeded to rhyme and theorize until his own heart could stand it no longer. Despite this dangerous habit, all who came to know him admired him for his skill (for it was a gift), and held him in high regard. Showing no ill-will to any creature, The Reckless Wind would compose sonnets for the bumblebees as they went about their work. Dancing about on his heels, he would sing epics to the trees as they swayed in his rhythmic steps. Welcoming the afternoon as a dear friend, and sending the evening off with a fond farewell, there was no want for companionship in his melodic life.
                Yet, the composer was lonely, for he was in love, and as all lovers are at some point, he felt a longing for that which he could not obtain. Though he recklessly scored the world around him with an endless cadence, always the Reckless Wind would save his sweetest rhymes for the Pure Moon. Every night at twilight, she would rise to cast her lovely beams upon his face as he would whisper his cleverest limericks in her ear. Though they spent each night in blissful companionship, as all good things do, their time together would often come to an end far too swift; the moon’s brother, the Jealous Sun, would rise driving the wind back to his wandering and forcing the two lovers apart. Despondent, the Reckless Wind would travel many miles, the face of his beloved ever dancing before his eyes, and always he pondered how he might end such conflict.
                This rash cycle of joy and despair continued for many years, interminably and without any direct confrontation until one fateful night which changed the poor poet’s life forever. As the Reckless Wind coasted down the soft sand in a place near the sea, the night was swiftly approaching. As any lover can attest to, the wind was anxious beyond belief, expecting the appearance of his beloved. Though not an entirely unpleasant feeling, one can certainly never call such a feeling one of comfort. It feels much the same as one feels before rising to address a very large crowd, or when shaking hands with some very prominent person, or perhaps how one might even feel when speaking to one’s grandfather, though these be poor comparisons. The heart leaps in the chest with such ferocity, bursting at its seams, and crying out for relief from the pressure of anxious anticipation. Yet at the same time, one feels such a sense of inadequacy to address the coming circumstance that intelligible speech, much less conscious thought becomes nigh-impossible. The entire world suddenly becomes a rounded endeavor in which all ideas and objects begin to flow together in one seamless dream in which the slightest of discomforts and irritations have no place. Upon the singular person of the admirer’s sweetheart does the whole of this universe proceed to revolve in a continuous quantum. Such was the feeling and atmosphere of the Reckless Wind as he prepared for the coming of his lover.
                However, when the evening finally arrived, cooling the earth after the heat of the day, the wind remained waiting through the entirety of the night. Patiently he waited for the Pure Moon, for he was in love and faithful as no lover has ever been, nor as any since will ever be. Softly he crooned to the waves, reciting his favorite rhymes just to pass the time…

Just listen to the voice in my head
He’s telling me that you’re the common thread.
The questions I ask, trailing behind
They over take me as I unwind.

As we avoid the truth, and our right minds
The planet turns and the stars align
You ask me how I am and I reply.
A constellation forms between you and I…”

                Constantly, the Reckless Wind questioned her eclipse, but never once doubted her resolve. Patiently he waited as the stars danced above, sweeping across the vaulted sky in their tribal rituals. As morning approached, the Reckless Wind had, by this time, become very anxious in his wonder and confusion. It was as the dancing troupe made their final departure from the heavens, and the jealous sun began to awake, that
the reckless poet caught the smallest of the stars so as to inquire as to the source of his dilemma.
                “Please, little one. In your many travels this evening, have you seen my lover? She is delicate, with eyes as deep as the summer. In the sky she glides upon God’s precipice. Her mantle is pale, and her presence of gentleness, but she has not met me here this night passing from my sight. Though I know her love is pure, her disappearance is highly irregular! Inspire of all your sanctions, could you shed some light on my passions?”
                The Young Starlet Child replied to his calling with wide eyes and voice forlorn. Her words brought no comfort to the anxious lover, for her attention was focused upon higher causes than that of the reckless poet.
                “If for purity you do seek, listen my son as I do speak. The sky stretches far, and the sky stays so near, some lovers stray, while others stand here. Wish not for the day to end, but search yourself for your dear friend. Through both the concrete and the abstract, find in yourself the strength to act. Inquire yourself of the Jealous Sun, not ‘till reconciled will your task be done.”
                In virtue was the Young Starlet Child contrived, and to virtue she looked, and nothing else. No cause separate of Utopia would enthrall such a hythloday to action.
               
                Dejected and drastic, The reckless poet was taken aback, suddenly uncertain of many things which he once understood, most of all in regards as to the whereabouts of his lover, he was desperately unsure. Despite this ambivalence, the Reckless Wind quickly began to theorize as to both cause and solution, and no matter which way he chose to describe his circumstance, all roads led to him, indeed taking the Young Starlet Child’s advice and inquiring as to the disappearance of his paramour; Inquiring of the Jealous Sun, himself.
                               
                And so, gathering every ounce of courage inhabiting the corners of his virtuous heart, The Reckless Wind approached the Jealous Sun at the break of day. To such sincerity and ardent devotion, even the most voracious of souls could not object to such a simple inquisition. The master of sky sat on his throne wearing a countenance numb, expressionless and still; yet when the composer of air approached he showed no fear.
                “My bright comrade, you know why I have come. Seeking that which was not, for my love is lost beyond my thought. Tell me now where she has gone, flying by night, as the sky stretches on. By grace and grave, the shipwrecked and smuggler, I know that it be not for sake of another. Save for your command given from atop your seat so grand.”
                Grave was the Jealous Sun’s expression as he listened to the Reckless Wind’s questions, and silent were his eyes. Yet patient was he, and calculating were his thoughts. Swift was his reply and curt was his speech, when the Jealous Sun finally spoke.
                “You’re earnest I can see, but your stories I still don’t believe. You amongst these souls, lack any form of control. My sister I have hidden away, eclipsed until I decide a day, when she might again rest in your arms, truly beloved and safe from all harm. Prove to me your words and thoughts for you have naught but youth, your foreign state of confusion is no longer safe, for your home is now in pursuit. Send for the light that lives in the north, she can cleanse you thenceforth. Your time grows short and so take heed, take the road less traveled by lovers indeed. Patience is key and separation is certain, through danger you must pass and then you will learn…”
                It was with these words that the Jealous Sun remained resolute in his purpose and sent the Reckless Wind away with few more answers than he had arrived with.

                Distraught, the Reckless Wind continued to wander, what had the Jealous Sun meant in his admonition? Such a duty fell ambiguous upon the poet’s ears. Cryptic was the path set before him, and fractured the road, yet in search of his love, he ploughed north with tears in his eyes, and questions in his heart. Over rock and ridge his swift steps took him, constantly in search of the light which would satisfy his charge and return his amore. Within the evergreen forests and across mighty rivers, beyond amber plains, and through driving rain the Reckless Wind traveled until he came to the very foot of the mountains. It was here that he collapsed, cold and tired amongst the rolling foothills, still sweeping onwards.

                When the Reckless Wind came to his senses, he found himself flowing down over the mountains passing through the trees, caressing each leaf as he sped by. He breathed the sweet valley morning and tasted the velveteen sky, leaving no scent untouched. Despite the ache in his heart, the poet found his soul beginning to soar amidst the beautiful landscape which now surrounded him. His core was moved so much that he burst into a joyful song, filling the air with his whimsy…

“ If I knew how to fly away from here,
Where stories are heard all the time,
And dreams are fished from deep sea brine,
I’d be there to stay.

The air would be filled with life at night,
No one could help but to sing,
While the placed their songs on wing,
Cuz they’re reminded of better days.”
               
                With a song on his lips and light in his murky eyes, he continued to travel the airwaves like an angel of interest, casting a gentle breeze across the blades of grass which swayed in time with his rhythms. A flock of sparrows drifted by his side and began to harmonize with his composition. Meanwhile a cardinal led the melody, dancing amongst the measures and leading each bar with his melodious solo. Such were the Reckless Wind’s companions as he continued northward. However, as the miles increased and the days of his travel began to blend together, the ground below his footsteps became colder, and the atmosphere sparse. Shorter were the daylight hours now, and bare was the landscape which met the Reckless Wind’s smoky vision, Soon all the world was bathed in a silver shimmer, as snow covered mountains began to rise higher on each side of the Reckless Wind’s path. Crystal glaciers pervaded the horizon on every side, where the sky, capacious in it’s expanse and reaching to the very corners of this life. Clear it was, and dark. So dark was the sky such that as the wind looked upon it he could taste the very tip of its immense girth. Amidst the expanse, islands of diamond gleamed, floating on frozen seas of glass. Softly would the wind coast about their aerial pinnacles, caressing each icy shaft with winter’s care. Like a mother gazes upon a beloved child’s face, would the Reckless Wind gaze upon such wonders, for each was his kin.
               “Certainly this must be the North, it’s all I’ve ever hoped for! No more could a breeze wish for such things. Truly is this the home of kings! Here I may find the northern lights as they dance amongst the heights. Here will my hope be restored to me. Now will be decided all that would ever be!” And find the northern lights he did indeed. Not but after a day of living amongst the frost did the Reckless wind find that which he sought. As twilight drew nigh, and the sky raged clear, the wind sat himself down to rest upon the water. Tenderly did he bathe his smooth fingers amongst the chilly ocean’s vast folds rustling the water’s surface. It was then that he cast his eyes to the sky with longing, and he met with a sight such as that he had never seen before.

                Blazing across the sky like a silvery estuary flowing down from her source near heaven’s embankment, an argent stream of light coursed across the deepening vault. Looping amidst her empyrean beacons were deep shades of azure and viridian, outlined in the deepest of crimson. Sterling starlets were cast throughout her aqueous figure, drifting about as schooners on a pale sea. Each possessed a wispy green sail, traversed by wafts of royal rills. An amber mist left over from the summer morning surrounded the celestial vapors. Swaying to and fro, the golden haze reminded the Reckless Wind of dawn in late August, calling to mind the sounds of rippling rivers, and crying herons as they hunted in the underbrush. Music filled the air congregating upon the loam, ever swelling and changing about the poet. One moment the sound of a thousand violins could be heard echoing about the canyons, the next sounding a chorus of bull-frogs taking their midsummer solstice. Hastily did the Great Lights move across their domain, casting such a feeling of abundant paucity upon the Reckless Wind that he could do no more than stand in awe of the great scene before him. Such was the ethereal allure of the Aurora Borealis, or has it been since said.
                Never before had the Reckless Wind seen anything of the sort, and as he gazed upon her magnificent brilliance before him, his heart leapt and his soul began to soar for he had found what which he sought!
                “Jubilation free! Could this be that which I seek? The Northern Lights are before my eyes, and I shall see my love ‘er the Jealous Sun rise.”
                Yet his joyous elations were suddenly cut short and all music ceased. As he gazed on in wonder and hopeful adoration, he began to take notice of that which had previously passed him by. Unbeknown to the composer of air, ominous storm clouds had began to gather on each side of the horizon, bringing with them the chilling rain of the North and stinging ice. In the face of such dangers, the tall mountains quaked in their roots as the sable rivers hid their delicate faces. Even the Great Light quailed in her path across the heavens. Violently did the rain and Ice berate the Great Light as she progressed, grasping at her sides and tearing her flesh. Quickly the very beauty which once ruled the sky became scattered about the endless void. Urgently she glanced about the earth for one who might deliver her from the storm’s onslaught. It was then that she noticed the Reckless Wind.
                “Help me child! Save me from this dangerous gale! I may seem grand and beyond reach but my life is frail! Find it within yourself to rescue me, and I will be in your debt, though I am weak. You cannot sit idly by, nor remain there and question why,”
                Confused, the Reckless Wind watched the Great Light under attack by the weather so strong; and confused, he searched for an action he might take. Never before had such fear grasped him, and never again would he be called upon to meet such a calling. Though he did not himself know it, the defining moment of his entire life was upon him, and his time was growing short. So it was, as the Reckless Wind closed his begrimed eyes, that he began to swell about in a stronger gale than he ever had before. Swifter now were his rhythmic steps and stronger was his melody. Grim became his demeanor and turbulent were his blasts. Surging high above the ground where once a young zephyr stood, now a mighty tempest raged.
                Whistling past sea and sound, the Reckless Wind rose in the air to meet the oncoming storm. As the two monstrosities approached each other, the air tingled with potency and the very sky began quiver. As The Reckless Wind faced the coming invasion, the vast heavens themselves folded aside in his path. It was with a clap of lightning that the two powers collided in the sky, each raging in order to gain some ground. For hours on end the two were locked into an endless struggle neither willing to give way to the other. Just as the Reckless Wind would push forward, the coming storm would seep in underneath his feet, bursting the glaciers lying beneath. Around their struggling forms whirled streams of ice and water caught up and tossed about in their efforts. All the while, the Great Light looked on, growing in admiration and esteem. Constant was each in their resolution, and powerful were their wills, yet so strong was the storm that even Father Time himself would have been irresolute as to the outcome, Yet as the wise so often say, it is truly he with the greater cause who triumphs in the end, and what did the Wind have to lose but true love? As he struggled, always was the face of the Pure Moon before the poet’s eyes, all about his station could he feel her lovely beams cast about his frame, and he was filled with strength. Every second his sight became clearer, his efforts grew cogent, and his will thrived. With one final burst of summer’s breath, the Reckless Wind silenced winter in its calloused raging and sent it farther north to those places where none have yet ventured.
                His duty fulfilled and the danger abated, the Reckless Wind returned to the ground, exhausted. All about him rang the applause of all creation. Tall mountains creaked in admiration, while the sable waters below leaped in excitement, even the Great Light herself could not help but shine the brighter because of his victory.
                As he gasped for breath, the Reckless Wind dimly saw before him the Great Light as she descended, bathing him in sharp colours and cradling his weary head in her rays. Softly she spoke to him words of wisdom and insight.
                “ You have traveled in search of the unknown, that deep history. You left your home seeking beyond your plateau, all love’s mysteries. It is love you shall have at the end of this day, inside every thought though hell should bar your path in every way, you’ve found what you sough. It's not enough, just to abstain, though it costs your freedom, to see others free. Till Christ returns, as I remain, Lord, let not chivalry die with thee, for your time has come now, my dearest friend, though neither you nor your breeze can be an island…”  With such words, the Great Lights comforted him and carried him home, far to the south where his true heart would forever dwell amongst the trees.

                        And the rest, as they so often say, is history. Though as vibrant as ever, the Reckless Wind was now, not so reckless. Again would the Tranquil Wind dance among the woodlands, and sing to the bees as they gathered their stores.. His poetry ever unfolding before him, still showing no creature any ill-will. Welcoming the afternoon as a dear friend, and sending the evening off with a fond farewell, there was no want for companionship in his melodic life. Again would he speak to the starlet children, guiding them with council sweet, and many times would visit the Great Lights of the North. Again would he approach the Jealous Sun with honor in his eyes, and integrity clothing his name, and again did he see his love. Never did she again leave him, for always do fidelity, passion, ardor and devotion have their accolade. Always the Tranquil Wind would save his sweetest rhymes for the Pure Moon. Every night at twilight, she would rise to cast her lovely beams upon his face as he would whisper his cleverest limericks in her ear. It was then that the poet would spend each night in paradisaical esprit, married to the Pure Moon. May such love forever flourish.

Inspiration Playlist!
Something Beautiful – Needtobreathe
I’ve Got This Friend- The Civil Wars
Happily Ever After- He Is We
Island- Mainstay
That’s Amore – Dean Martin
Name- Goo Goo Dolls
Istillfeelher, Part III – Jonny Craig
Miss Nothing- The Pretty Reckless
Waiting – We Are The Ocean
Northern Downpour- Panic! At The Disco
Best Is Yet To Come- Red


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