I've always been strong, but can't make this happen...

“…and all these things I pray in your Son’s name…amen.”

“My child, I am glad you have come to Me…It’s been a while”

“I know Father…I have no excuse.”

“Really?”

“Okay…so I have half a dozen, but they’re not worth repeating.”

“I know them already…why are you downcast my child?”

“I am afraid, Father…”

“Of what?”

“Of….of You.”

“Hmm…”

“Are you angry Father?”

“No my child, of course not…you should be afraid of Me…Tell me my child, what am I that you are afraid of me?”

“Well, You are many things, you are my King, you are my Judge, you are my Soldier, you are my Teacher”

 “And why must you fear a teacher my child?”

“….Teachers can….give you a bad grade?”

*Chuckles* “My child, my child, you are a silly one… But is true. Do you believe I will give you a bad grade?”

“I am certain I have not worked hard enough to deserve one, Father.”

“Do not be afraid my child…I am grading on a curve.”

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

I'm not egotistical or anything...

But I did think this picture was really cool. Thanks Rachel :)

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Song for a rainy day...

This song perfectly described today...and so... I listened...


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

It's amazing how, at the end of an obtuse day, you can...

Tell a friend why he impressed you…

Take off your shoes…

Eat, and be filled…

Smell the smell of your semi-clean room…

Consider what has been, and what could still be…

Sing a song…

Remember something you forgot...

Close your eyes in the car, and attempt to picture the landscape by feeling the turns…

Take out the garbage…

Look at the stars…

Learn…

Play the Guitar…

Toss a Frisbee…

Hear your father’s voice…

Think of your mother’s intentions...

Witness your sister’s love…

Laugh at your sister’s humor…

Listen to “This Side” by Nickel Creek…

See your best friends shinning smile…

Pray…

And then…everything falls into place…for now. 

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

¡Mis amigos son el mejor!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U6GMaHanH88

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Just a complaint... (Continued)

Dear Blogger,

It's 10:38 pm, Saturday, March 20th, 2010, and...I kinda suck.

If you'll see the post directly below this one, you'll know that I was whining because no one ever comes to see me. Then today struck, almost an hour after my last post, who should ring by doorbell but Bob Marley!!!

Okay so it really wasn't Bob Marley, but I wouldn't have traded this gift for any amount of dead rock stars, or their fame for that matter. :)
Who should ring my doorbell but two gentlemen by the names of Patrick Mangan and Joey Krall, (Only two of the best guys ever to have lived. I mean out of all my funkyfreakyawesome friends, these guys have got to be some of the funkyfreakyawesomEST!)

After their brief welcome serenade and some brosef-hugs were exchanged, I preceded, in a rather flustered and frantic manner, to gather my guitar, any picks I could grab, and mine shoes (which I didn't wear at all...I dunno why I even bothered to bring 'em...).

After walking to the car, (these guys parked all the way down the street to surprise me!), greeting a sleepy Becky (who came to see me too! Dude...I love these people), we headed to Mill Race park in Columbus for some food and frisbee.

To make a long story short...a night in C-town, with good friends, and filled with spiritual conversation...not much can beat it.

Adoni, Elohim...toda for chaverim. Ani Ohev Otach. Atah Tzodek.


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Just a complaint...

You know...nobody ever just randomly stops by my house... I wish more people did.


Cuz I like people. :)



Oh no...now I've started...I'll never stop.* Bllaarrrghhhhhhhhhh, all my cards.*


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Life is a prison, my body's a cell...

Seven months in the making
Making only organized crime
We'll be masterminds if our dreams will reach the shore
Another turning point in time tonight when the lights go out
Shotgun Freedom is what they say I'm about
What I'm about won't matter when I walk out the door
Familiar faces put on dolls, fashioned raincoats, and handmade tools
When the evening's ending
I'm still standing tall!

Surrounded by these loopholed walls
Any minute I'll begin a ticking time bomb til I run
Once we're gone, at the sight of the lights out,
Nightfall shades the sun
We'll put together said and done

Seven months led the breaking
Breaking only rules that apply
In this prison labeled "unable to abort"
A reputation redefined tonight at the darkest hour
When the three of us go missing, one is missing out
He gave little time to a job that needed more
Familiar faces put on dolls, fashioned raincoats, and handmade tools
When the evening's ending
I'm still standing tall!

Surrounded by these loopholed walls
Any minute I'll begin a ticking time bomb til I run
Once we're gone, at the sight of the lights out,
Nightfall shades the sun
We'll put together said and done

Lights out now, it's half past nine
Up a 30-foot corridor three men climb
It should have been four, but one man is left behind
Crawl from the rooftop down to the northern end,
Through the thickest fog to the water's edge,
For the thrilling ride to be never seen again
Whistles blow on the morning at the sight of the break,
Three empty cells with only decoy faces
Of the ones now known to the other side of the bay
Victims lost and drowned, or so they say
Only presumed dead but the deadliest way for you to keep your life
Is to let it seem to slip away

Familiar faces put on dolls, fashioned raincoats, and handmade tools
When that evening's ending
I'm still standing tall!

Surrounded by these loopholed walls
From beginning to the end a ticking time bomb on the run
Now we're gone! At the sight of the lights out,
Nightfall shades the sun
We'll put together said and done

Once and for all, surrendered were the broke down walls
I can't thank them enough for the pleasure of growing old
We'll move on in a long-lived story that everyone will know
But the ending's left untold...


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Hey, soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do, tonight...

I always wanted little brothers. Someone I could run around outside with, someone who would help me skip rocks, climb trees, and play cops and robbers...but I didn't get one.

..I think God gave me a little more than I was expecting. :P

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

I've got this half moon, and I'll save the other half for you...

I really can’t express how much I enjoy watching the stars. They don’t really go anywhere. I doubt that the stars ever use their traveler checks, but they still hold my gaze all the same. We’ve had a lot of really clear nights the past 2 weeks and it’s given me another chance to watch them as they dance…and speak

Maybe it’s because they’re so far away. Only God knows how bright they really are, they must be especially bright if I can see them from where I am. They’re so bright, and they care about me so much that that they shine just to say, “Hello! We’ve been waiting to meet you!”

Maybe it’s because there are so many of them, Only God knows how many there really are.

They seem to dance all the time. Some in flamboyant groups, some as soloists. I wonder if the stars form cliques just like we do? It would be a shame if they did, I mean think about it. The stars might lose some beauty if they weren’t organized just perfectly as they are now. If they drifted about without a care in the world, caring only for themselves and their five closest constellations then they might be a little less lovely.

Maybe it’s because they understand who they are. We’ve only got God to thank for that! They don’t half to put on dress up in costumes, or put on makeup. They just hop up on God’s stage and do their piece and get down when the next act comes up. They are Oscar winners in my book, all of em’.

No…

I’ve decided.

I love the stars.

I love the stars because they make me feel small.

They make me feel so small, that I can look up at them, and know that everything is alright. They are so big, and so bright, and so far away…

And they are right where God wants them…Just like me.

I love the stars because they make me feel small…

…and that’s empowering.


"Jeremiah 29:11-12"

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

It's like being in love, you rob your own mind...

"Memento Mori, my favorite ones, because your time on this earth is brief. Arise and be all that you dream. Encourage each other and remember to sing over each other, over your family, and over yourself, Arise and be all that you dream!”

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CS2nwY9MFeQ


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Music = good for mine soul. :)

I heard this...and it was an instant classic. Methinks you'd like it too! Both versions are stellar. :)


http://www.playlist.com/searchbeta/tracks#No%20One%20Really%20Wins/all/1

P.S. I love how the first chorus is acapella, the second is lo-fi, and they're strait rocking in the last. :)

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

I can live forever here...

"You must have been thinking about me today, cuz my ears were burning..."

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

You think you're keeping us quiet, we're not the problem, but we are the solution...

Ships don't sink if they have wind in their sails.
But if the wind fails, is there hope for me? 
I thought your love was safe. The promise you made wasn't so safe...

Now I am drowning in your shallow sea; I swim.
You are the storm, the wind and the waves.
you break me in two and toss me away.

You are the waves that toss me in.

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Floating and fighting, like a kite on a string, 'till you cut through my tether and changed everything...

Winter is over...

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

And the spies came out of the water... (Danke zu mein freund, Josiah)

As I walked in the woods, with my shoes off

I came across a sight I shall not see often.

And shall not forget at last

As the torrid rain fell in bursts

I noticed by the water, I am quite sure

A face from the past.

I’m sure his name was Mr. Jeremy Fisher

For I knew him by his figure.

And he sang a mellow song I knew.

With his lily-pad, and bag full of night crawlers

I should have missed him had he not been taller.

He sang “I jumped across for you, what a thing to do, cause you were all yellow.”

I know his story, but he does not know mine.

And I’m sure he’s just fine, content to float

Without a care in the world

Perhaps, If my story were more like his, I wouldn’t mind the rain
From clear skies, I would abstain

And care more for night crawlers than life’s sweet whirl

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

I wanna live life, and never be cruel...

I was left on the wings of a prayer today.
As we grasped hands and lifted our souls towards the ceiling.

I received a cellular call from an old friend today,
She whispered in my ear, “I am spring, remember me?”

I forgot all that had occurred in a matter of hours.
and remembered what makes me a wretch.

I moved a table, only to be replaced by a chair,
And discovered what lies beyond the forbidden door.

I traded 2 pennies for a nickel,
But forgot to return the unknown key.

I walked under the stars, cold as I could be,
And remembered not to complain, for but minutes before I had been hot.

I heard a desperate song,
Which I sang without sincerity, yet felt relieved.

I spoke to a friend at the end of the day
And the Angels said, “Amen…”

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

There is a part of me that always takes the easy way out, if it doesn't hurt...

Matthew 5:13 "You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men."

What does this verse mean?
Christians = The Salt of the earth, Obviously. What are we to do then? Just as salt, we are to preserve the earth and give flavoring to the world. This is probably what you just thought of...and It's what I always thought of as well...until now. Consider this.

In Order to cook, 1st century Jews would use an oven much like this one. As fuel for a fire, these people would use two ingredients. First of all, there would be used, the remaining skins and pits of olives which had already been pressed for oil. Mixed with these remains would be dried dung which had been collected from native animals, such as donkeys, camels, and occasionally a cow. These two things were burned in order to fuel cooking fires. However, one other element would be added to this mix which caused it to burn faster, hotter, and longer. That element was salt. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jewish_cuisine) 

Matthew 5:13 "You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men."

Now we know Jesus was a Jew, and he was obviously familiar with Jewish culture. So what is Jesus really saying here?

Christians= The Salt of the earth. What are we to do then? As the salt of the earth, we are called to mingle with the dung, and the dead and dried remnants of this earth, in order to produce a fire that is not only fast, but hotter and longer lasting than any this world has ever known!!!

Christians are not simply called to preserve…we are called to burn! We are called to burn, and burn with a passion!

If we lose our saltiness, we are worthless to God's purpose...

“So light the fire, in my soul! Fan the flame! Make me whole! Oh, LORD, You know just where I’ve been! So light the fire in my heart again!”

Blasjflakhfksdgsdg!!!….I am such a westerner.


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."