Assuming all the wrong reasons...

I listened to your message,
Over and over again.
Thought about how I let you down.
Thought about who I am.

I felt hopeless,
I got caught up in this life.
I'm such a mess,
I wonder how I looked through your eyes.

We've all got a past...

Baby, take your time.
Stop and see for once in your life
The things you're missing out on.

I look out on the city lights
Wonder where you are tonight?
There's so much that I wanna say
Will you ever let me?

And if I pour my heart out
Do you want the truth?
Yeah, I'd pour my heart out
I at least owe that to you.

Baby, take your time,
Stop and see for once in your life
The things you're missing out on.
Like me, like me in the sunshine
The summer's almost over,
We're running out of time.

I at least owe that to you.

Open up your eyes
There's so much I have to say, will you ever let me?
I'm right in front of you
There's so much I have to say, will you ever let me?

It's too cold for June.
How come I only hear from you when you're liquored up?
I've heard all about the others
And this side of you that you discovered this summer.

Baby, take your time,
Stop and see for once in your life
The things you're missing out on.
Like me, like me in the sunshine
The summer's almost over,
We're running out of time...


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

We've got trouble, yes! Right here in River City!

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

This is the best feeling in the world. :)

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Time out of mind must be heavenly...

Hm, how to say this without sounding repetitive? I'm tired of letting the lyrics speak for me. That's the lazy man's way out of self expression.

In the past year I've made a certain progression in the right direction. At least that's what I tell myself in the darkest moments, and see? That's just the thing. I don't have dark moments anymore. I don't have incredibly happy ones anymore either. Things pass me by in a whir of apathetic convalescence. All at the same time, I feel like I should be standing on my own two feet and leading the way without flinching, while also healing from some great calamity. Stuck in the middle is a strange place to be. That's not a new feeling though; this impotence has been a friend of mine for a while now. I just happened to be distracted by this and that, always caused by a false sense of self worth. One can only hear so many different opinions before the decision comes.

"Hang it all! I don't care anymore. You don't know who I am and could never begin to understand!"

Dude, seriously though... I'm too old to be pulling 13-year-old "You don't understand me" stunts.

The truth of the matter is I'm tired of failing, and changing, and being insincere, and saying what I don't mean, and not upholding my own ideals, and spilling my guts, and being used, and not finding what I'm really looking for. I can't keep watching A Walk To Remember and crying every time. I'm not even sure what I'm crying about, for crying out loud!!! I guess I'm never quite sure to deal with the things that God places in my life. I'll always face the changes and hope for the worst discovering in the end that it's not quite that bad. Maybe this massive change looming on my horizon will shake me out of this...if it doesn't, then I don't know what will.

I used to pray that my conscience wouldn't harden, and now I pray that it won't have too.

But in the end, it's funny how I was always fine being a novelty...

...until the moment it mattered most.

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

And other days I'm just a lucky bug...

My many companions have returned to me!

Even though my heart still breaks every summer,

The thing is...

I'm not dead yet.

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Kayak

"Dude, when you finally find a girl who's beautiful on the inside...you should marry her and have ugly babies.  "

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Oh, Comet come down!

I’d like to do a rain dance, and set the bright rays free

But jumping up and down doesn’t make much sense to me.

So you look down on all of this to watch my grand mistake,

And I’ll keep eating sun chips just to wish the storms away.

I know that this evening is an awkward one for you,

But you don’t have to hide from the things I’ve said to you.

Just cuz I left you in a make or break parade,

It doesn’t mean you have to ignore all my serenades.

Yes, I swear to say it louder the more that you tell me I'm wrong,

And you could never understand why I wrote this desperate song.

And So I’ll mosh my own way home to drown out our condition,

I’ll leave the ground and hold the line to kill off my addictions.

 

The ties that bind our lives together are so thin it seems, 

And what a shame it is when petty things get in-between.

I’d never noticed all the colors in every gravel stone,

But you can’t go from east to west, unless you turn around.

So if I learn to dance around you, will you step on my toes?

And if you ever pluck the strings, will I sing on my own?

Cuz when I've lost my sanity in the wrong upswing,

What is left for you but to put Rosie in the ring?

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."