I walked away, leaving my heart buried in the cave, hidden underneath the crevice. I know it'll be fine without me, because it will be in good company. I just pray that when I come back, it still beats of it's own accord.
As I continue forward, I leave my mind underneath the river bank, under the charge of the current. It will travel far beyond any destination I could ever reach. I just hope that when it reaches the ocean, it will send me a postcard.
I looked back today, and noticed my own footprints.They weren't very deep, or even very noticeable...In fact, had my own foot not been there but moments before I might have not even known. I just hope that they'll last long enough for my pursers will be able to see them.
I stopped in the doorway and breathed, resting as all I ever knew left me forever. It won't ever return...because I won't want it too....
What was the answer again?
I hope I never remember.
I know that I'm not devoid of emotion, It's just that I don't feel them anymore. To be completely honest, I miss a bit of the old days. The angst, the tension, the rebellion. Now, I see how silly those days were, and so...I just don't have them anymore. I spend my days under the trees, in the sunshine...because the dark no longer thrills me.
http://www.playlist.com/searchbeta/tracks#The%20format%20the%20first%20single/all/1
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Concerning Pipeweed...
"You can search far and wide,
You can drink the whole town dry,
but you'll never find a beer so brown,
As the one we drink in our home town!
You can drink your fancy ales,
You can drink 'em by the flagon,
But the only brew for the brave and true,
Comes from the Green Dragon!"
:P
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
You can drink the whole town dry,
but you'll never find a beer so brown,
As the one we drink in our home town!
You can drink your fancy ales,
You can drink 'em by the flagon,
But the only brew for the brave and true,
Comes from the Green Dragon!"
:P
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Friday, August 20, 2010
The concrete calls my name again...
"I'm so glad that the 'Freshman Year' mentality is over and we can all just be friends."
"It's so...yesterday..."
"This is true..."
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
"It's so...yesterday..."
"This is true..."
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Thursday, August 19, 2010
You cover the darkest part of me, with a look that's sure to set the captives free!
“The salvation of a single soul is more important than the production or preservation of all the epics and tragedies in the world.” -C.S Lewis
"I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent." - Jesus Christ (Luke 15:7)
Hallelujah! Behold! Christ has triumphed tonight!
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Monday, August 16, 2010
"When life is in discord, praise ye The LORD..."
Time is passing me by, and I have no control over it.
I can see it, but I can't touch it. This is insane! Where did all my power go?
I'm starting to feel like a vegetable, just watching the whole scene without actually effecting it.
Maybe it's a misplaced desire to want to have some influence over my own life, but it's still a natural one.
I want to be responsible for the sweat on my brow...
For the words on this page...
For the glimmer in his eyes...
For the smile on her face...
I want to touch real life, simply so I can say, "I've done it!"
Cuz the day I forget what's real...is the day reality ceases to exist.
Redeem the time.
Real Christians arise, It's time to be men.
Colossians 4:2-6
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
I can see it, but I can't touch it. This is insane! Where did all my power go?
I'm starting to feel like a vegetable, just watching the whole scene without actually effecting it.
Maybe it's a misplaced desire to want to have some influence over my own life, but it's still a natural one.
I want to be responsible for the sweat on my brow...
For the words on this page...
For the glimmer in his eyes...
For the smile on her face...
I want to touch real life, simply so I can say, "I've done it!"
Cuz the day I forget what's real...is the day reality ceases to exist.
Redeem the time.
Real Christians arise, It's time to be men.
Colossians 4:2-6
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
When I'm in your arms, I'm holding up the sky...
1 Corinthians 1:20-15
This is peace.
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
This is peace.
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Sunday, August 8, 2010
New Favorite
So you're on your own
Looking down the road
That goes only by one name
And you don't need the signs
To see lonely still runs both ways
So who's the fool that would think the ties would be better off undone?
Did you heart heed the warning
When you veered from the path
That was narrower and straight?
On the borderline
Somewhere between that plight for freedom
Feeling like you can't move on
The toll will be the time
Takes you off of my mind
And out of my heart I know
And when you cross over
There's no turning back
Once that burning bridge is gone
I may lose
But I'm in it for the long run
Loving you
For good reason could be the wrong one
I don't wanna lose control
But the heart won't learn
To let well enough alone
On the borderline
Somewhere between that plight for freedom
Feeling like you can't move on
The toll will be the time
Takes you off of my mind
And out of my heart I know
And when you cross over
There's no turning back
Once that burning bridge is gone
So you're on your own
Looking down the road
That goes only by one name.
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Looking down the road
That goes only by one name
And you don't need the signs
To see lonely still runs both ways
So who's the fool that would think the ties would be better off undone?
Did you heart heed the warning
When you veered from the path
That was narrower and straight?
On the borderline
Somewhere between that plight for freedom
Feeling like you can't move on
The toll will be the time
Takes you off of my mind
And out of my heart I know
And when you cross over
There's no turning back
Once that burning bridge is gone
I may lose
But I'm in it for the long run
Loving you
For good reason could be the wrong one
I don't wanna lose control
But the heart won't learn
To let well enough alone
On the borderline
Somewhere between that plight for freedom
Feeling like you can't move on
The toll will be the time
Takes you off of my mind
And out of my heart I know
And when you cross over
There's no turning back
Once that burning bridge is gone
So you're on your own
Looking down the road
That goes only by one name.
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
"There's blood on my hands, and the killer is not my enemy..."
It's an interesting place to be, sitting in the middle of a self-created paradox.
When both sides of the entire world come together at one single pinicale. Meanwhile, all that you love and despise comes crashing together above your head. The fireworks begin to sound, and the waves above your head have already had their own way.When all you can say is, "Just tell the truth..." throwing aside your own desires and praying that the best for all will come about. It's almost suffocating... yet at the same time...you're thrilled at the thought of death.
Escape...
Escape from the confusion, and the even greater the fear.
Until...the air breaks and you begin to float.
There's no possible way you could have gotten there by yourself. Yet you know it's because your prayers were answered. You know that in your most desperate hour, the words to whispered into the dark were heard by He for whom they were spoken. Through the miraculous turn of this complexity known as consciousness, the trial is finished. Your sky is clear, and all of the maze walls have fallen.
It's an interesting feeling, escaping from the very prison you built.
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
When both sides of the entire world come together at one single pinicale. Meanwhile, all that you love and despise comes crashing together above your head. The fireworks begin to sound, and the waves above your head have already had their own way.When all you can say is, "Just tell the truth..." throwing aside your own desires and praying that the best for all will come about. It's almost suffocating... yet at the same time...you're thrilled at the thought of death.
Escape...
Escape from the confusion, and the even greater the fear.
Until...the air breaks and you begin to float.
There's no possible way you could have gotten there by yourself. Yet you know it's because your prayers were answered. You know that in your most desperate hour, the words to whispered into the dark were heard by He for whom they were spoken. Through the miraculous turn of this complexity known as consciousness, the trial is finished. Your sky is clear, and all of the maze walls have fallen.
It's an interesting feeling, escaping from the very prison you built.
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
"For this reason a man shall leave his father and mother..."
"Perhaps the crescent moon smiles in doubt, at being told that it is but a fragment awaiting perfection..." -Sir Rabindranath Tagore
:)
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Saturday, July 31, 2010
The boulevard is bustlin’...
Some friends and I made a quick trip to the Edinburgh Premium Outlets today. The mall is located just a few minutes outside of Columbus, and is a simple hop, skip, and jump from my house; so a trip over seemed like the perfect outing when our company and monetary were in low reserve.
Much to my surprise, we were treated to live music! In the middle of the outlet mall complex, a sextet group named Quick Said The Bird was performing outside. Of course...I immediately went crazy.
After but a minute or so, my friends disregarded my fanatic display of joy over discovering a live and free performance, and continued onward to enter the nearby bookstore. However, I simply HAD to stick around and listened to a few tunes.
The music was predominantly carried by the bass tones of the cello, which was was undoubtedly the loudest instrument on set. However, the vocalist possessed a soft yet passionate quality, in his singing, and his picking that he was easily the lively-hood of the whole set. I was able to gather also a few extremely catchy bass lines from the player in the back.
As I listened, I couldn't help but remember songs by Horse Feathers or some of the more mellow tracks by The Decemberists. They played compositions filled with heavy instrumentation and highly poetic lyrics which one would need much time to truly appreciate. All-in-all it was a wonderful 5 minutes getting to hear them play.
Alas, my friends dragged me away to do other things far too soon, and so I did not get to savor the sweet sounds being produced. Fortunately for me...they're on the internet...and I'll be ordering their EP and album as soon as it comes out. :)
http://www.quicksaidthebird.com/news
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Much to my surprise, we were treated to live music! In the middle of the outlet mall complex, a sextet group named Quick Said The Bird was performing outside. Of course...I immediately went crazy.
After but a minute or so, my friends disregarded my fanatic display of joy over discovering a live and free performance, and continued onward to enter the nearby bookstore. However, I simply HAD to stick around and listened to a few tunes.
The music was predominantly carried by the bass tones of the cello, which was was undoubtedly the loudest instrument on set. However, the vocalist possessed a soft yet passionate quality, in his singing, and his picking that he was easily the lively-hood of the whole set. I was able to gather also a few extremely catchy bass lines from the player in the back.
As I listened, I couldn't help but remember songs by Horse Feathers or some of the more mellow tracks by The Decemberists. They played compositions filled with heavy instrumentation and highly poetic lyrics which one would need much time to truly appreciate. All-in-all it was a wonderful 5 minutes getting to hear them play.
Alas, my friends dragged me away to do other things far too soon, and so I did not get to savor the sweet sounds being produced. Fortunately for me...they're on the internet...and I'll be ordering their EP and album as soon as it comes out. :)
http://www.quicksaidthebird.com/news
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Sunday, July 25, 2010
I am here.
Can you even see me?
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Love Affair
Love it when you spit on me and say it’s raining
Think I’ll never get enough of your complaining
Shrug your shoulders, walk away, solve those problems
You’re the bigger man...
Whispered words behind my back are so amusing
Guilt can be your basis to begin accusing
Lay your blame on someone else, burn those bridges
You’re the bigger man...
Run away from situations
That could lead to confrontations
Now we’re both aware that you would never look me in the eye
To tell me how you feel
When you can leave it on a note
Let’s hear you try to lie to me
With hands around your throat
Don’t you dare stare at the floor
I’m gonna say this to your face
You’ll have reason to resent me
When I put you in your place
I can see you living your life out alone
Who knows maybe you’ll do all right on your own
Once you realize that it’s too late to atone
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Think I’ll never get enough of your complaining
Shrug your shoulders, walk away, solve those problems
You’re the bigger man...
Whispered words behind my back are so amusing
Guilt can be your basis to begin accusing
Lay your blame on someone else, burn those bridges
You’re the bigger man...
Run away from situations
That could lead to confrontations
Now we’re both aware that you would never look me in the eye
To tell me how you feel
When you can leave it on a note
Let’s hear you try to lie to me
With hands around your throat
Don’t you dare stare at the floor
I’m gonna say this to your face
You’ll have reason to resent me
When I put you in your place
I can see you living your life out alone
Who knows maybe you’ll do all right on your own
Once you realize that it’s too late to atone
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Rouse then, Soldiers! Rally Round The Banner!!!
“She gets her own way, he gets his own way. She likes her food, he likes his food. She likes to go places
on vacation, he likes to go places on vacation. Then they get married and they realize they both want
their own way and OOPS! You’ve married the wrong woman!”
“I want my rib back!”
“Travis…Did you know that you talk REALLY loud?” *seductively* “I do other things loud too…”
“God wants to make you complete corn…”
“If you know how to respond right, you never have the same problem twice…”
“I’ll buy you two oatmeal-cream pies! Do you know how much energy that is on the Ross Camp Conversion Chart?!?!?!?!
“There’s no smile like an oatmeal-cream pie smile!” “TRAVIS…PUT THOSE BACK….NOW.”
“Gary, what time do you usually go to bed?” “Well, Kelvin…I never do anything normally.”
“Well, sometimes girls get their hair pulled…” “That’s like goin’ back to the caveman days dude!”
“Don’t you just love the Church of Christ? All these guys, and all these girls, at all these camps…you have like…love octagons…”
"Guys...I lost my drawls..."
"You're my healing stream in the desert of life, You're the peacemaker for all my strife. You've done all this for one like me, now Yours, forever, I will be..."
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Cold Day In The Sun...
The sun delivers what we've already seen, while all of these voices inside my head truly imply, "you're the common thread..."
Ants in time and homemade ice cream justify this lack of energy. Meanwhile, a walk in the woods and skipping stones are my companions. Still, my memories will create something which will last for so much longer than water under the bridge. Longer then it could ever take to analyze, we'll both read this story.
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Ants in time and homemade ice cream justify this lack of energy. Meanwhile, a walk in the woods and skipping stones are my companions. Still, my memories will create something which will last for so much longer than water under the bridge. Longer then it could ever take to analyze, we'll both read this story.
Though you and I may not be on the same page, at least we're leafing through the same book.
You ask me how I am, and I reply, "Only as well as water..." Which is only as swell as a flood, and is only as true as a lie. As we avoid the truth, and the stars align, a constellation forms 'tween you and I.
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Crayons can melt on me for all I care...
Sometimes, that moment when your cheeks bulge right before you laugh...
That moment when your nose is twitching and aching from the contortions of facial muscles...
That moment when you feel like your entire face is going to explode...
Sometimes that moment is the best ever...
:P
(Thanks to Grace Hammersly for finding the Darth Vader pic and making me chuckle)
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
That moment when your nose is twitching and aching from the contortions of facial muscles...
That moment when you feel like your entire face is going to explode...
Sometimes that moment is the best ever...
:P
(Thanks to Grace Hammersly for finding the Darth Vader pic and making me chuckle)
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Sunday, July 4, 2010
I'll admit to who I am, the day I come to understand, I havn't got a clue...
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm+38&version=NIV = what I need to say.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ym3uCDVWKfI = my mood.
Tonight, I'm ashamed. I can clearly see what's in front of me, and what lies behind. Fore-sight and hind-sight are strangely aligned. Tonight is the kind of night that reminds me, I'm far to sappy and emotional for my own good, but I feel as though I can't help it. The conscience is piercing and accurate. (Matthew 12:36-37) That means it's healthy right? It's alive and kicking.
Words, words words....too many words have been coming out of my mouth.(Ephesians 4:29-30) I grieve alot, and I probably grieve others alot too. ...and yes that was a confession. But at least I can admit it, right? Psshh, I should just call this blog the Diary of Grumpy, Stupid and Dopey. Right now I've got more in common with them than my Rabbi.
But,
Tonight, I'm hopeful, because when at the bottom there's no where to go except up. (2 Corinthians 1:12)
I want to be able to speak Paul's words...I want to speak them so bad, I'll dive headlong into eternity if I have to. So onward I'll charge... with The Word as my guide, experience as my mentor, perspective as my companion, and sincerity as the destination, I'll continue this anthill-march.
Until then...
You'll all just have to deal with my dramatic mindset...
Cuz, I'm drunk on ideals...
and high on resolve...
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
You Echo Me
I stare at you, and you stare at me,
But we never speak,
Of love and respect or the cause and effects,
Of what could be by the end of next week.
I hear you say, “Friend, I just don’t know…”
And you echo me
But you’ll never know just how far I can go
Or what I can do to make you see
(Chorus)
So let’s strip down and get back to basics
Nothing but fairy-tales and instinct
Of all that’s false, I know what’s true
You amaze me, do I amaze you?
Your faith is mine, and I know it’s not right
So I’m gonna try
To take back the past and change all the facts
And speak sincerely’ til the day I die…
(Chorus)
So now it begins, and I’m on the run
But your vision’s straight.
If you take my hand and we start again
No one can stop us, we’re anxious to wait…
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Sunday, June 27, 2010
"Look children to the eastern sky..."
I'm living my very own fairy-tale. Set in my own back yard, I can see all of the players move about on stage. They execute their lines perfectly, never missing a cue...
This time... I won't play my part.
Trust me, it's not out of angst, it's not out of rebellion.
It's because I care about you.
If I'm wasting my time,
Please tell me...
http://www.playlist.com/searchbeta/tracks#Misearbile%20Visu%20(Ex%20Malo%20Bonum)/all/1
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
This time... I won't play my part.
Trust me, it's not out of angst, it's not out of rebellion.
It's because I care about you.
If I'm wasting my time,
Please tell me...
http://www.playlist.com/searchbeta/tracks#Misearbile%20Visu%20(Ex%20Malo%20Bonum)/all/1
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
"But all the colours mix together to grey..."
I drown out of inevitability. Once taught to swim, performing all of the strokes brings me to my grave.
Floating is an extermination.
My heart guides me, and leads me down paths which my heart does not understand. Blindly I stumble out of safety. Façades are terrorism.
I receive many smiles, and have much to cause a smile. Yet I am forced to never demonstrate joy. Emotion is my adversary.
I plant the largest seeds, water them, watch them, and love them. Yet they never grow. Cultivation is tacky.
I long for spontaneity, but was never taught how to be such. Whimsy is vain.
I listen to every-signal, but they are boisterous. Devotion is vicious.
I am more sincere than any on earth, yet, am blamed for trying to go the extra mile. Effort is unruly.
I have bid “fare-well” to the theatre, but love to act. Thrills are delinquent.
I can see everything, but nothing seems as it is. Sight is exaggerated.
I am selfish, yet must acknowledge self in order to examine the heart. Righteousness is impossible.
I am selfish, yet must acknowledge self in order to examine the heart. Righteousness is impossible.
I am a contradiction who will never admit the fact, for in admitting the truth, one becomes the truth.
Truth is a murder.
There are thieves among the faithful… and all of the rouges have clean hands.
Darkness now sheds sound on the unseen… and this light is so loud.
This mind has stopped beating, and this heart has begun spinning.
This foreign state of confusion is no longer safe...
For my home is in pursuit…
http://www.playlist.com/searchbeta/tracks#big%20eyed%20fish/all/1
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
The words I wrote are a broken chain, holding me from the criminally insane...
Dude... I can't wait for this album.
If you havn't heard their debut, then you my friend, are not a rock fan. This is gonna be absolutely beastie.
Edit: I purchased this album today (it was on sale on it's release date?!?!) and trust me...it hasn't disappointed. ;)
Ooooooh! New metal. :)
Not to mention new Anberlin, new Family Force 5, new Eisley, new FM Static...and loads more comin' soon...
My music library is about to swell... :P
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
If you havn't heard their debut, then you my friend, are not a rock fan. This is gonna be absolutely beastie.
Edit: I purchased this album today (it was on sale on it's release date?!?!) and trust me...it hasn't disappointed. ;)
Ooooooh! New metal. :)
Not to mention new Anberlin, new Family Force 5, new Eisley, new FM Static...and loads more comin' soon...
My music library is about to swell... :P
"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."
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