"I'll always be grounded..."

Lately I'm alright
And lately I'm not scared
I've figured out
That what you do to me feels like
I'm floating on air
I don't need to know right now
All I know is I believe
In the very thing that got us here
And now I can't leave

Say anything, but say what you mean
'cause I'm caught in suspension

Now,
I'm wanting this for sure
And I'll beg for nothing more
I'll plan all day and drive all night
You'll love what's in store
I can't seem to stop this now
Even if it's not so clear
And I'll take what I can get
If you want me here (If you want me here)

Say anything, but say what you mean.
When you whisper you want this
Your eyes tell the same
We are gaining speed
I can barely breathe
'cause I'm caught in suspension

It's enough for me to get excited
It's enough for me to feel...woooooah ooooh oh oh oh

Say anything, but say what you mean
When you whisper you want this (when you whisper you want this)
Your eyes tell the same

We are gaining speed (suspension)
I can barely breathe (Oh, I can barely breathe)
I'm caught in suspension (Suspension)
I'm caught in suspension


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Don't wait for daylight...

It's always the best questions that merit no answers. To fill one's insides with doubt, just like drinking murky water, always takes a bit of introspect.

For the first time, that still and small voice in the back of your head has a face, much worse...it has a name.
"Hello? Are you there friend? Can you hear me? It's your desires calling. We need to remind you of what you shouldn't say." But I say them anyway, because curiosity truly is what killed the kind.

I can't see everything, though I want to. I can see anything...anything except that which is important. Just call me oblivious. Maybe it's because my eyes are dim, maybe it's because you're moving too fast, maybe it's because my eyes are covered, maybe it's because you'll change instead.

Or maybe...

Maybe it's just poetic justice...

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

We owe this to ourselves, we can't just let this go!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=of9U3aGUyvU&feature=related
 *Unintelligible burst of excitement*

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

"I'm not after fame and fortune, I'm after you..."

Until now, I was just a bystander. My only responsibility was a simple pat on the back, or maybe some kind words. Both of which I gladly provided. Other than that, I was perfectly content to sit back and let the scene unfold.

But something changed tonight.


I was handed my commission. Given my orders. Commanded to my station.

Now, I have my work cut out for me. However, if I am called to be the definer of future events, then so be it.

I just pray I'm ready for the challenge.


http://www.playlist.com/searchbeta/tracks#From%20heads%20unworthy/all/1

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

"Curiosities, when departed, are missed...however small they may be."

I walked away, leaving my heart buried in the cave, hidden underneath the crevice. I know it'll be fine without me, because it will be in good company. I just pray that when I come back, it still beats of it's own accord.

As I continue forward, I leave my mind underneath the river bank, under the charge of the current. It will travel far beyond any destination I could ever reach. I just hope that when it reaches the ocean, it will send me a postcard.

I looked back today, and noticed my own footprints.They weren't very deep, or even very noticeable...In fact, had my own foot not been there but moments before I might have not even known. I just hope that they'll last long enough for my pursers will be able to see them.

I stopped in the doorway and breathed, resting as all I ever knew left me forever. It won't ever return...because I won't want it too....

 What was the answer again?

I hope I never remember.

I know that I'm not devoid of emotion, It's just that I don't feel them anymore. To be completely honest, I miss a bit of the old days. The angst, the tension, the rebellion. Now, I see how silly those days were, and so...I just don't have them anymore. I spend my days under the trees, in the sunshine...because the dark no longer thrills me.


http://www.playlist.com/searchbeta/tracks#The%20format%20the%20first%20single/all/1

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Concerning Pipeweed...

"You can search far and wide,
You can drink the whole town dry,
but you'll never find a beer so brown,
As the one we drink in our home town!
You can drink your fancy ales,
You can drink 'em by the flagon,
But the only brew for the brave and true,
Comes from the Green Dragon!"


:P

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

The concrete calls my name again...

"I'm so glad that the 'Freshman Year' mentality is over and we can all just be friends."

"It's so...yesterday..."

"This is true..."

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

You cover the darkest part of me, with a look that's sure to set the captives free!

“The salvation of a single soul is more important than the production or preservation of all the epics and tragedies in the world.” -C.S Lewis

“Faith is the daring of the soul to go farther than it can see” - William Newton Clarke

 "I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent." - Jesus Christ (Luke 15:7)

Hallelujah! Behold! Christ has triumphed tonight!

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

"When life is in discord, praise ye The LORD..."

Time is passing me by, and I have no control over it.

I can see it, but I can't touch it. This is insane! Where did all my power go?
I'm starting to feel like a vegetable, just watching the whole scene without actually effecting it.
Maybe it's a misplaced desire to want to have some influence over my own life, but it's still a natural one.

I want to be responsible for the sweat on my brow...

For the words on this page...

For the glimmer in his eyes...

For the smile on her face...



I want to touch real life, simply so I can say, "I've done it!"

Cuz the day I forget what's real...is the day reality ceases to exist.

Redeem the time.


Real Christians arise, It's time to be men.

Colossians 4:2-6

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

When I'm in your arms, I'm holding up the sky...

1 Corinthians 1:20-15
This is peace.

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

New Favorite

So you're on your own
Looking down the road
That goes only by one name
And you don't need the signs
To see lonely still runs both ways
So who's the fool that would think the ties would be better off undone?
Did you heart heed the warning
When you veered from the path
That was narrower and straight?

On the borderline
Somewhere between that plight for freedom
Feeling like you can't move on
The toll will be the time
Takes you off of my mind
And out of my heart I know
And when you cross over
There's no turning back
Once that burning bridge is gone

I may lose
But I'm in it for the long run
Loving you
For good reason could be the wrong one
I don't wanna lose control
But the heart won't learn
To let well enough alone

On the borderline
Somewhere between that plight for freedom
Feeling like you can't move on
The toll will be the time
Takes you off of my mind
And out of my heart I know
And when you cross over
There's no turning back
Once that burning bridge is gone

So you're on your own
Looking down the road
That goes only by one name.

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

"There's blood on my hands, and the killer is not my enemy..."

It's an interesting place to be, sitting in the middle of a self-created paradox.

When both sides of the entire world come together at one single pinicale. Meanwhile, all that you love and despise comes crashing together above your head. The fireworks begin to sound, and the waves above your head have already had their own way.When all you can say is, "Just tell the truth..." throwing aside your own desires and praying that the best for all will come about. It's almost suffocating... yet at the same time...you're thrilled at the thought of death.

Escape...

Escape from the confusion, and the even greater the fear.

Until...the air breaks and you begin to float.

There's no possible way you could have gotten there by yourself. Yet you know it's because your prayers were answered. You know that in your most desperate hour, the words to whispered into the dark were heard by He for whom they were spoken. Through the miraculous turn of this complexity known as consciousness, the trial is finished. Your sky is clear, and all of the maze walls have fallen.


It's an interesting feeling, escaping from the very prison you built.

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

"For this reason a man shall leave his father and mother..."

 "Perhaps the crescent moon smiles in doubt, at being told that it is but a fragment awaiting perfection..." -Sir Rabindranath Tagore

:)

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

The boulevard is bustlin’...

Some friends and I made a quick trip to the Edinburgh Premium Outlets today. The mall is located just a few minutes outside of Columbus, and  is a simple hop, skip, and jump from my house; so a trip over seemed like the perfect outing when our company and monetary were in low reserve.

Much to my surprise, we were treated to live music! In the middle of the outlet mall complex, a sextet group named Quick Said The Bird was performing outside. Of course...I immediately went crazy.

After but a minute or so, my friends disregarded my fanatic display of joy over discovering a live and free performance, and continued onward to enter the nearby bookstore. However,  I simply HAD to stick around and listened to a few tunes.

The music was predominantly carried by the bass tones of the cello, which was was undoubtedly the loudest instrument on set. However, the vocalist possessed a soft yet passionate quality, in his singing, and his picking that he was easily the lively-hood of the whole set. I was able to gather also a few extremely catchy bass lines from the player in the back.

As I listened, I couldn't help but remember songs by Horse Feathers or some of the more mellow tracks by The Decemberists. They played compositions filled with heavy instrumentation and highly poetic lyrics which one would need much time to truly appreciate. All-in-all it was a wonderful 5 minutes getting to hear them play.

Alas, my friends dragged me away to do other things far too soon, and so I did not get to savor the sweet sounds being produced. Fortunately for me...they're on the internet...and I'll be ordering their EP and album as soon as it comes out. :)

http://www.quicksaidthebird.com/news


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

I am here.

Can you even see me?

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Love Affair

Love it when you spit on me and say it’s raining
Think I’ll never get enough of your complaining
Shrug your shoulders, walk away, solve those problems
You’re the bigger man...

Whispered words behind my back are so amusing
Guilt can be your basis to begin accusing
Lay your blame on someone else, burn those bridges
You’re the bigger man...

Run away from situations
That could lead to confrontations
Now we’re both aware that you would never look me in the eye

To tell me how you feel
When you can leave it on a note
Let’s hear you try to lie to me
With hands around your throat
Don’t you dare stare at the floor
I’m gonna say this to your face
You’ll have reason to resent me
When I put you in your place

I can see you living your life out alone
Who knows maybe you’ll do all right on your own
Once you realize that it’s too late to atone 



"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Rouse then, Soldiers! Rally Round The Banner!!!

“She gets her own way, he gets his own way. She likes her food, he likes his food. She likes to go places

on vacation, he likes to go places on vacation. Then they get married and they realize they both want

their own way and OOPS! You’ve married the wrong woman!”

“I want my rib back!”

 “Travis…Did you know that you talk REALLY loud?”  *seductively* “I do other things loud too…”

“God wants to make you complete corn…”

“If you know how to respond right, you never have the same problem twice…”

“I’ll buy you two oatmeal-cream pies! Do you know how much energy that is on the Ross Camp Conversion Chart?!?!?!?!

“There’s no smile like an oatmeal-cream pie smile!” “TRAVIS…PUT THOSE BACK….NOW.”

“Gary, what time do you usually go to bed?” “Well, Kelvin…I never do anything normally.”

“Well, sometimes girls get their hair pulled…” “That’s like goin’ back to the caveman days dude!”

“Don’t you just love the Church of Christ? All these guys, and all these girls, at all these camps…you have like…love octagons…”

"Guys...I lost my drawls..."

"You're my healing stream in the desert of life, You're the peacemaker for all my strife. You've done all this for one like me, now Yours, forever, I will be..."

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Cold Day In The Sun...

The sun delivers what we've already seen, while all of these voices inside my head  truly imply, "you're the common thread..."

Ants in time and homemade ice cream justify this lack of energy. Meanwhile, a walk in the woods and skipping stones are my companions. Still, my memories will create something which will last for so much longer than water under the bridge. Longer then it could ever take to analyze, we'll both read this story.

Though you and I may not be on the same page, at least we're leafing through the same book.

You ask me how I am, and I reply, "Only as well as water..." Which is only as swell as a flood, and is only as true as a lie. As we avoid the truth, and the stars align, a constellation forms 'tween you and I.

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Crayons can melt on me for all I care...

Sometimes, that moment when your cheeks bulge right before you laugh...





That moment when your nose is twitching and aching from the contortions of facial muscles...





That moment when you feel like your entire face is going to explode...

Sometimes that moment is the best ever...

:P

(Thanks to Grace Hammersly for finding the Darth Vader pic and making me chuckle)

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

I'll admit to who I am, the day I come to understand, I havn't got a clue...

http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm+38&version=NIV  =   what I need to say.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ym3uCDVWKfI   =   my mood.

Tonight, I'm ashamed. I can clearly see what's in front of me, and what lies behind. Fore-sight and hind-sight are strangely aligned. Tonight is the kind of night that reminds me, I'm far to sappy and emotional for my own good, but I feel as though I can't help it. The conscience is piercing and accurate. (Matthew 12:36-37) That means it's healthy right? It's alive and kicking.


Words, words words....too many words have been coming out of my mouth.(Ephesians 4:29-30) I grieve alot, and I probably grieve others alot too. ...and yes that was a confession. But at least I can admit it, right? Psshh, I should just call this blog the Diary of Grumpy, Stupid and Dopey. Right now I've got more in common with them than my Rabbi.


But,


Tonight, I'm hopeful, because when at the bottom there's no where to go except up. (2 Corinthians 1:12)


I want to be able to speak Paul's words...I want to speak them so bad, I'll dive headlong into eternity if I have to. So onward I'll charge... with The Word as my guide, experience as my mentor, perspective as my companion, and sincerity as the destination, I'll continue this anthill-march.




Until then...



You'll all just have to deal with my dramatic mindset...



Cuz, I'm drunk on ideals...



and high on resolve...


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."