Life is odd...live it up.

Now that I think about it...I always did want to be an elephant...


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Others have excuses, I have my "reasons why"...

I’ve written songs
In the dark, in the dark, in the dark, in the dark
I’ve felt inspired
In the dark, in the dark, in the dark, in the dark
I hide myself
In the dark, in the dark, in the dark, in the dark
Used to be afraid
Of the dark, of the dark, of the dark, of the dark
Those in the light know we die
In the dark, in the dark, in the dark, in the dark

There’s only artificial light here
My flaws hide well here
I used to be afraid of cluttered noises
Now I’m afraid of silence
Fill this space
Idle words

I’m scared to death of light and silence
Jesus kill me inside this
Raise me up to live again
Like you did, like you did!

Now I am mute despite myself
All of them are gone
The silence overtakes me
The idle words forsake me
And I am left to face me

I’m held accountable
For every idle word
Curse the idle words!

I’m scared to death of light and silence
Jesus kill me inside this
Raise me up to live again
Like you did, like you did

Glory shows up
Exposes us
I’m naked here
Forsaken here
By the dark
By the dark
Damn the dark!

I’m scared to death of light and silence
Jesus kill me inside this
Raise me up to live again
Like you did, like you did... 


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

"It is done..."

"Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. ⁴He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."
 He who was seated on the throne said, "I am making everything new!" Then he said, "Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true."
 He said to me: "It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To him who is thirsty I will give to drink without cost from the spring of the water of life. He who overcomes will inherit all this, and I will be his God and he will be my son."

Revelation 21:1-7

Dude...I can't wait.


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

You wanna know how I feel?

"The moment's magic swept us away...and it's so close...but we're so far away..."


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Joooo hav got 2 tri dis....Iz swanky...

http://www.addictinggames.com/i-dont-even-game.htmla

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

My new job is seeeeewwwwwww cool...

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Collapsing in on yourself, and I don't know why...

I let You down again..
I know, there wasn't any excuse.
But it just...happened.

Guess one can blame it on my poor sense of self.
In order to have control something you need to understand how it works...
So in order to have self-control, I would need to understand myself right?

Bllaaaarrrrrghhhhhhh,

In the end, that's what every thought in my head sounds like...conscious, spoken, or not...


Ah well.....I guess I'm just oblivious.



"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Young and with no clue, and I wanna love you...

I know I'm just speaking idle words,
but maybe If I believe them
they'll come true.
You'll see me dance on my own grave,
but I don't want to grow too old
a day too soon...

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Blahahahaha!

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Just a perspective...

Tonight...I talked. Probably too much.
But, if I talked too much, that means someone listened more than they should have.

Well...whatever happened tonight...it felt good.







I guess i'm just oblivious...

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine...

I fished in my yard today,

But didn’t catch a single sound.

Cuz in Indiana,

It’s hard to pull music from the ground.

I didn’t make my quota today,

But oh, what a catch!

My  friends outnumber the stars,

As a matter of fact.

I’ve been trying to get on top,

But the mold won’t fit like that,

We don’t bounce back anymore,

Instead I just fall flat.

So walk into the desert

And leave behind the shore

You can touch the whole wide world

Cuz your shadows stretch that far.

I danced in the rain today,

Sang with the thunder of the clouds.

I sent you the sunshine,

It never stays long in this small town.

I’ve been looking upside down,

Need to get my perspective straight.

I could see from me to you,

If I had a little faith.

So climb the highest mountain,

I’ll meet you where you are.

You can touch the whole wide world,

Cuz your shadows stretch that far.

I sort of lost my head today,

but I found it in your hands.

You gave it back with a smile that said,

You truly understand.

And so I’m left alone again,

With a day’s mistakes to reconcile, 

In the checkbook of my heart.

But then the sun sets with a smile, 

As I stay and watch for now,

The sky grows slowly dark.

You can touch the whole wide world

Cuz your shadows stretch that far 

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

I've always been strong, but can't make this happen...

“…and all these things I pray in your Son’s name…amen.”

“My child, I am glad you have come to Me…It’s been a while”

“I know Father…I have no excuse.”

“Really?”

“Okay…so I have half a dozen, but they’re not worth repeating.”

“I know them already…why are you downcast my child?”

“I am afraid, Father…”

“Of what?”

“Of….of You.”

“Hmm…”

“Are you angry Father?”

“No my child, of course not…you should be afraid of Me…Tell me my child, what am I that you are afraid of me?”

“Well, You are many things, you are my King, you are my Judge, you are my Soldier, you are my Teacher”

 “And why must you fear a teacher my child?”

“….Teachers can….give you a bad grade?”

*Chuckles* “My child, my child, you are a silly one… But is true. Do you believe I will give you a bad grade?”

“I am certain I have not worked hard enough to deserve one, Father.”

“Do not be afraid my child…I am grading on a curve.”

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

I'm not egotistical or anything...

But I did think this picture was really cool. Thanks Rachel :)

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Song for a rainy day...

This song perfectly described today...and so... I listened...


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

It's amazing how, at the end of an obtuse day, you can...

Tell a friend why he impressed you…

Take off your shoes…

Eat, and be filled…

Smell the smell of your semi-clean room…

Consider what has been, and what could still be…

Sing a song…

Remember something you forgot...

Close your eyes in the car, and attempt to picture the landscape by feeling the turns…

Take out the garbage…

Look at the stars…

Learn…

Play the Guitar…

Toss a Frisbee…

Hear your father’s voice…

Think of your mother’s intentions...

Witness your sister’s love…

Laugh at your sister’s humor…

Listen to “This Side” by Nickel Creek…

See your best friends shinning smile…

Pray…

And then…everything falls into place…for now. 

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

¡Mis amigos son el mejor!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U6GMaHanH88

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Just a complaint... (Continued)

Dear Blogger,

It's 10:38 pm, Saturday, March 20th, 2010, and...I kinda suck.

If you'll see the post directly below this one, you'll know that I was whining because no one ever comes to see me. Then today struck, almost an hour after my last post, who should ring by doorbell but Bob Marley!!!

Okay so it really wasn't Bob Marley, but I wouldn't have traded this gift for any amount of dead rock stars, or their fame for that matter. :)
Who should ring my doorbell but two gentlemen by the names of Patrick Mangan and Joey Krall, (Only two of the best guys ever to have lived. I mean out of all my funkyfreakyawesome friends, these guys have got to be some of the funkyfreakyawesomEST!)

After their brief welcome serenade and some brosef-hugs were exchanged, I preceded, in a rather flustered and frantic manner, to gather my guitar, any picks I could grab, and mine shoes (which I didn't wear at all...I dunno why I even bothered to bring 'em...).

After walking to the car, (these guys parked all the way down the street to surprise me!), greeting a sleepy Becky (who came to see me too! Dude...I love these people), we headed to Mill Race park in Columbus for some food and frisbee.

To make a long story short...a night in C-town, with good friends, and filled with spiritual conversation...not much can beat it.

Adoni, Elohim...toda for chaverim. Ani Ohev Otach. Atah Tzodek.


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Just a complaint...

You know...nobody ever just randomly stops by my house... I wish more people did.


Cuz I like people. :)



Oh no...now I've started...I'll never stop.* Bllaarrrghhhhhhhhhh, all my cards.*


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Life is a prison, my body's a cell...

Seven months in the making
Making only organized crime
We'll be masterminds if our dreams will reach the shore
Another turning point in time tonight when the lights go out
Shotgun Freedom is what they say I'm about
What I'm about won't matter when I walk out the door
Familiar faces put on dolls, fashioned raincoats, and handmade tools
When the evening's ending
I'm still standing tall!

Surrounded by these loopholed walls
Any minute I'll begin a ticking time bomb til I run
Once we're gone, at the sight of the lights out,
Nightfall shades the sun
We'll put together said and done

Seven months led the breaking
Breaking only rules that apply
In this prison labeled "unable to abort"
A reputation redefined tonight at the darkest hour
When the three of us go missing, one is missing out
He gave little time to a job that needed more
Familiar faces put on dolls, fashioned raincoats, and handmade tools
When the evening's ending
I'm still standing tall!

Surrounded by these loopholed walls
Any minute I'll begin a ticking time bomb til I run
Once we're gone, at the sight of the lights out,
Nightfall shades the sun
We'll put together said and done

Lights out now, it's half past nine
Up a 30-foot corridor three men climb
It should have been four, but one man is left behind
Crawl from the rooftop down to the northern end,
Through the thickest fog to the water's edge,
For the thrilling ride to be never seen again
Whistles blow on the morning at the sight of the break,
Three empty cells with only decoy faces
Of the ones now known to the other side of the bay
Victims lost and drowned, or so they say
Only presumed dead but the deadliest way for you to keep your life
Is to let it seem to slip away

Familiar faces put on dolls, fashioned raincoats, and handmade tools
When that evening's ending
I'm still standing tall!

Surrounded by these loopholed walls
From beginning to the end a ticking time bomb on the run
Now we're gone! At the sight of the lights out,
Nightfall shades the sun
We'll put together said and done

Once and for all, surrendered were the broke down walls
I can't thank them enough for the pleasure of growing old
We'll move on in a long-lived story that everyone will know
But the ending's left untold...


"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Hey, soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do, tonight...

I always wanted little brothers. Someone I could run around outside with, someone who would help me skip rocks, climb trees, and play cops and robbers...but I didn't get one.

..I think God gave me a little more than I was expecting. :P

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."