Between heaven and hell, I've got no home...

Well would you look at that. We're already two weeks into the semester and I haven't posted my back to school playlist yet.  I'm getting old folks...losing my mind.

Well without further ado...


Sunday- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8jkVphnx2cE

Monday- http://papercandle.bandcamp.com/track/keepsakes

Tuesday- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oG28dsH0ui8

Wednesday- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fGYObAx-rbg

Thursday- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lLukHntn_bE

Friday- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k0BWlvnBmIE

Saturday- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TNxqPeJMNKk

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

We will never sleep as long as everybody sings...

It wasn't until I grew up a bit that I was able to learn things for myself. Even then, I always learned the hard way. Most of the time I would choose the most difficult path to the top, and if you would have asked me, I would have known it. Maybe that's why I always used to feel like I was failing. No matter how hard I would try, everything would always fall apart in front of my eyes.

Then help would always come from the most unlikely of places. I learned that prayer really is answered. I learned that teachers are sometimes lost in the background. I learned that prestige is deceitful. I learned that  Love is faceless. I learned that the night is alive, and can't be controlled. I truly pray that the authority figures in my life don't think me rebellious, but I'm civilly restless.

And still in love with the shadows.


 http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=0lGycT8aXm0&feature=endscreen

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."

Cold light above us.

Stuff is messed up. People are messed up. The world is messed up. The funny thing about all of that is, so am I.  I never asked for any of this.

Some people tell me that I've matured, gained some experience. The only thing I feel like I've gained is new weight. I'm afraid to walk down dark streets now. Even worse than the fear, is the apathy. I just have the same old questions that I used to, and I still know each one's answer. There's not much of me left anymore, is there? I would hope not. Some part of me still feels, still hopes, something. Right? I do know one thing. I'm not worthy of it. That's always been true. If I deserved absolution I would still be too oblivious to see it when it looked in my window.

Why do I have the funny feeling like I've been here before? Could the cycle be beginning again?

"I get so distracted by some people's reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. At times it's so self destructive, with no intent or motive, but behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart..."